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[Nov. 8th, 2005|01:56 pm] |
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Shirts in the closet, shoes in the hall
Mama's in the kitchen, baby and all
Everything is everything
Everything is everything
But you're missing
Coffee cups on the counter, jackets on the chair
Papers on the doorstep, you're not there
Everything is everything
Everything is everything
But you're missing
Pictures on the nightstand, TV's on in the den
Your house is waiting, your house is waiting
For you to walk in, for you to walk in
But you're missing, you're missing
You're missing when I shut out the lights
You're missing when I close my eyes
You're missing when I see the sun rise
You're missing
Children are asking if it's alright
Will you be in our arms tonight?
Morning is morning, the evening falls I have
Too much room in my bed, too many phone calls
How's everything, everything?
Everything, everything
You're missing, you're missing
God's drifting in heaven, devil's in the mailbox
I got dust on my shoes, nothing but teardrops |
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| whoa. its beeeeen awhiiile |
[Sep. 30th, 2005|12:56 pm] |
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| | nothin. im home. | ] |
whats live journal again? oh yea... i forgot i had one of those..
so. incredibly. bored. i cant even begin to tell you how much i miss summer. im home right now, and its chilly and acorns are falling.. all over my car mind you. im about to move it across the street. i love driving my car around jackson with the windows down and pretending i have a system.. lol. glassboro fucking sucks. its so conjested and constructiony and crowded and ugh. not fun to drive around at all. i miss blueclaws.. as always. this is why im so bored now.. over the summer i didnt have like 10min with nothing to do.. i was always at rec, at blueclaws, camping, hanging out, at the beach, at the pool, in disney world. lol. i miss surf taco. i fucking hate fall. at least soon ill get to go snowboarding again.
ive decided that i really really want to write a book. i dont kno what about.. or for whom.. but. my life has had its interesting moments.. i could totally write a novel based on it. i dont kno where to start thou.. or what it should be about really.. what am i saying? i have no idea how to write a book!
omg can i just tell you how much i miss field hockey? its literally driving me insane. ive been scouring the internet trying to find a womens league that i could join somehow. nothing yet thou.. cept in north jersey. thats slightly too far from south jersey.
so im gonna find a second job... mainly bc im bored all the time. but it would also be nice to have extra cash to buy things with.. ive decided that i really really need a police radar detector thingy for my car. if im not going at least 80 down 295.. i think im going too slow. thats kinda bad.. and i dont feel like getting pulled over. cos theres some days, you just can find a speeder to follow. lol. and i hate being the leader.
also.. i really want a system in my car. like.. really badly. i so cannot afford it thou. theyre so fucking expensive. stupid electronics. maybe ill get a third job. |
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| and the conclusion, when we return.. |
[Aug. 5th, 2005|11:15 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | super loud club music!! haha | ] |
100- I Know: this survey is boring you.
101- I want: a pony. specifically the 2007 shelby cobra gt 500.
102- I wish: i wasnt such a procrastinator. sometimes, it really gets in the way. i dont even put things off for any reason, i just do it. like, ill be running on an empty tank of gas, but ill be like. ugh. ill just go to the gas station next time im out and pray i dont run out before then.. why?! no reason!! and with homewrk and studying.. i WANT to do well. i WANT to get everything done on time and not have to rush.. but do i ever start anything before the day its due?? nope.
103- I Have: the greatest friends. the jackson kids, the camping crew, and of course the rowan family. i love them all to death. no one else would ever do half the things my friends have done for me. i love how, at the campground we all look out for eachother and if someone wanders away, everyone else looks for that person or walks the drunken ones to their tent and makes sure theyre okay.. they have been my best friends since i was like 12. we can just go down to the Cg and sit at the pool, but have the most fun doing nothing. its fantastic. and i miss being at rowan so incredibly much. i would even willingly play halo if that meant i could hang out with them right now! haha. i love how we are so spontaneous and fun.. and HONEST. bc only your best freinds can look you in the eye and knowingly break your heart bc its for the best. and everyone up here in good ol' jtown.. we've been together since high school, and i miss being in high school with them all!! and of course i love my diary.. cos we're mary-kate and ashley and we tell eachother everything and its so great to have someone to do that with!
104- I Hate: people who drive slow. especially those who like to drive in the fast lane.. but only go like 65. and refuse to move over. i hate that!!! that gives me the worst case of road rage.. omg. i just start screaming and tailgating.. its so bad. haha. not that im always in a hurry, but its just annoying. who wants to drive slow??
105- I Miss: field hockey. that was so much of a part of my life.. all those girls were my best friends and we had so much fun together. i would seriously give anything to go back to that time right now. i want to wear our warmups to school together and have the pirate hanging from my belt loop on the day we play tr east again.. and i want to synchronize our cd players on the bus so we can mouth all the words together.. i even WANT to run suicides again. i want to be called Sonic again.
106- I Fear: car accidents. more than anything, i fear other people i love dying in car accidents. i always hear stories of people being killed in accidents or really badly hurt.. and its never happened to me, but nothings stopping it from being possible. i kno thats a horrible way to think, but it scares me so much. im so scared ill never get to say goodbye or regret something or miss someone too much. i dont im too scared of myself being in a car accident.. just someone i love.
107- I Hear: that kingda ka is open again! which kinda scares me.. cos ive heard too many things about what went wrong on that ride. not that any of it will stop me from going back on it.. lol. but seriously thou.. it odesm ake me a little nervous bc how is anyone going to kno when we reach the limit for highest, fastest roller coaster? i mean.. what if top thrill dragster is the limit and kinga ka is .. well past the limit for human endurance or like.. safety? oh well. if i die on a roller coaster, i wont be too upset. at least ill have gone out while having a blast.. not to mention my name will totally be in the news!!!
108- I Search: for love or lust or whatever in all the wrong places. i always end up liking the wrong people. and then i have trouble shaking the crush bc nothing good happens ever, and i kno boys dont like me back or i kno nothing CAN happen, yet im a dumbass and always think.. well maybe... but no. im just a big ball of mess.
109- I Love: when my feet are tan. i love when i spread my toes apart, you can see white. i dont kno why.. but i have this weird obsession for having tan feet. and hands too. i dunno..
110- I Ache: in my heart.. okay but seriously, right now the back of knees really ache and i have no idea why. but its really annoying.
112- I Care: about people too much sometimes i think. "my weakness is that i care too much". yea.. that song was written about ME.
113- I Always: look too deeply into things. my brain assummes every little thing a person, especially a guy, does is symbolic of something, when really, i KNO thats not true bc guys are just stupid and nothing they do ever EVER has a meaning hiding behind it. yet, constantly i find myself analyzing every little thing he did or said or how he looked at me.. yea its no good.
114- I Dance: only when im drunk. and probably not well.. haha. but we all kno how it is when youre drunk.. youre the greatest dancer that ever lived!
115- I Cry: about the stupidest things! i think what it is, is im such like a people person or something.. like i can put myself in other peoples shoes and really feel their emotions a lot of the time.. so when those Sylvan learning commercials come on, i guess i just get caught up in the moment. lmao. sadly, im dead serious. i have truly and honestly cried real tears during a sylvan commercial. and it doesnt stop there.. i will cry at ANY movie. any tv show.. even a song. not that im a crybaby.. but. im just a very emotional person. lol.
116- I Do Not Always:
117- I Write: neatly. haha. i have awesome handwriting! if i tried. i could seriously copy like anything exactly. i can make perfect letters as if they were in a book.. okay sorry, im bragging.
118- I Confuse: even myself sometimes.
119- I Can Usually Be Found: sleeping in other peoples tents.. lmao. im like goldilocks!
120- I need: to feel loved. i need hugs. i guess what im saying, more or less, is i NEED A BOYFRIEND!
time finished: friday 11:14pm
you're done :) |
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| this survey is long as hell.. |
[Aug. 5th, 2005|04:45 pm] |
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80.movies at home on in a theater? definately in theaters, bc i love seeing previews! if we are like, 2 minutes for a movie, i will refuse to go in until the next showtime bc we'll miss a preview or 2. previews are the BEST part!!
81.wanna live in a castle? sure.
83.what coat do you wear in the winter? doi. i wear my snowboarding jacket. and it has a bajillion zippers and pockets and weirdo things. for example, i can unzip my armpits to let some fresh air in!
84.(girls)what's something about guys you don't get? why theyre so fucking retarded.
85.(guys) what's something about girls you don't get?
89.what happens when you hear the word christmas? what do you mean "what happens?" okay, someone says the word christmas.. it travels thru my ear and bounces off my eardrum. and then my brain will process it.
91.what food brings back good memories? pickles. bc my grandpa used to make his very own pickles in the basement, and they were the most amazing pickles i have ever, and will ever have in my entire life.
92.do you talk to yourself? of course i do. you need to call yourself a moron sometimes outloud. i even have entire conversations in my head with myself.
93.sun or moon? both bc i love to be tan and i just love the moon too.
94.what's your opinion on love? um IT SUCKS. i dont feel like falling in love ever again, bc all that could possibly come from it, is a broken heart. i kno that sounds immature and high schoolish or whatever- but seriously. IT SUCKS.
95.what's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opp. sex? my favorite thing to do with a boy is sleep together. and by that i DONT mean having sex.. i mean literally sleeping together and spooning eachother and all that.
96.would you rather go ballroom dancing or square dancing? ballroom dancing. cos then id get to wear a long beautiful dress and pretend im like belle from beauty and the beast or something.
97.do you think you can afford to lose weight? definately. i can probably afford to lose an entire person.. haha.
99.what's the nicest thing any one has ever told you? probably when my grandma tells me to always stay as sweet as i am. hehe. and how proud she is of me and all. awwww. |
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| long ass survey more |
[Aug. 4th, 2005|06:36 pm] |
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20.what's an object you can't live without? i dont think id be able to live without a blankie. i NEED something to snuggle with at night or when im watching tv. or studying. or cold. or just want to be comfortable.. even if its like 80 degrees in the house, ill snuggle with the blanket just to be comfy!
21.can you live without the microwave? i could live.. i would just never eat anything warm. id have to eat chef boyardee out of the can, and crunch easy mac. althou.. after like the first week or so im sure i would die. so. i guess no. i cannot live without the microwave.
22.You have this uh, erotic dream about your friend of the opp. sex. how do you act and feel around that friend the next day? haha i would tell them all about it! those dreams are awesome.
23.would you rather be rich with 15 spoiled brats or just barely making it with a dog? okay if im rich.. couldnt i send all 15 spoiled brats to like boarding school?
24. how's your schoolwork for you right now? right now its fantastic seeing as its summer. but in less than ONE month thats all over with.. and then ill be busy writing for all my writing intensives and omg. i dont even want ot think about all the work!
25.what's something someone's done to make you hold a grudge against them? cmon people. you kno i dont hold grudges against anyone! i get over arguments in like 5 seconds. all the time ill have completely forgotten about an argument, and the other person will be all "ew! why are you even talking to me?" and ill be like what do you mean?? haha.
26.Favorite weather- i actually dont terribly mind it being hot. cos i like summer the best. i like lying in the sun and feeling all toasty.
27.what's one look trait that attracts you to a guy/girl? their eyes.
28.what's one personality trait that attracts you to a guy/girl? hmm. confidence i think. i dont want to date no crybaby loser.
29.do you know what 143 means? aww i love you, too!
30.who's phone number are you hoping to get? your moms. i heard shes a milf..
31. whats your biggest regret? definately not playing field hockey in college. i really wish i would have .. i was so good in high school.. not to brag.. but. lol. no i seriously got awesome. and then i chose rowan bc their field hockey team was ranked really high, and then i got scared cos i didnt kno anyone and i was afraid of sitting out my first year cos its not like there was a jv team or anything and that wouldve killed me. but its unbelievable how much i miss playing. are there sports for grad school???
32.describe mellow- it comes after marsh.
33.do you beleive in ghosts? why or why not? yes. soo many reasons.. when i was younger, my house was haunted and my parents told me that they would hear me talking while i was in my crib and when they asked who i was talking to, i said my other mother. and sometimes, they would find strange toys in my crib, like the old rubbery squeaky toys from like the 50s or 60s and they have noo idea where they came from.
34.what time did you sleep last night? i went to bed kinda early actually.. like around 12. as opposed to the usual strolling (ok stumbling) on in around 4 - 6 am.. lmao.
35.which guy/girl do you wish to be with RIGHT now? truthfully, right at this moment i wish i was with everyone from school. i wish it was like the cosmopolman party or something and we were still team awesome. cos i miss those times. and i miss my friends!
36.is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? i dont think it is.. but i mean lets be real here. if youre just bf and gf and youre too young to get married, your relationship cant be soo serious that you cant flirt with anyone else. you have to be open to new relationships. you cant commit to one single person when youre this young. but if you like another person, tell your bf or gf cos thats just rude to flirt woth someone else.
37.would you rather be married in venice, italy, or honolulu, hawaii? hawaii cos i love the beach. i also heard its a good place to get lay'd..
38.would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life? cmon pasta would get soo boring.
39.(guys) how would you feel if you gave a girl a flower?
(girls) how would you feel if you got a flower from a guy? id feel like.. some guy gave me a flower.
40.do you want to drop school? well ive gotten this far and paid this much money. .why would i stop now?
41. where was the last place you drove to? i drove home from recreation, like. 10minutes ago.
42.what do you think of the quote "eyes are the passageways into the soul" ? i like it. its true. cos a persons eyes will tel lyou how they are feeling about everything if you look into them.
43.What do you think of sleep? i think its a waste of time.. but it feeels soo incredibly great. i love to sleep.
44.if you had the chance to slow down your growth now and live to 500 years but it's like a 50 year old body by then, would you go for it? yea sure. the way i figure.. im 22 now, but everyone thinks im like 17. by the time im 50, ill only look about 35.. lmao..
45.at one point in a girl/guy friendship will one them them like each other even if it's only for a little bit. true or false? hey, people get drunk.
46.Are you a procrastinator? the biggest one i kno. if i have a paper due, i will do ANYTHING else to avoid it. and then ill wind up writing it like 10min before class, but. it drives me crazy!
47.waffles or pancakes? pancakes. mmmm. blueberry ones!
48.how's your cereal in your bowl? im not a fan of cereal. the sogginess makes me gag. and the dryness makes me thirsty.
49.what's an annoying trait about you? i procrastinate everything. and im sure it drives everyone else nuts. so.. im sorry.
53.(guys) your gf has long beautiful hair which you love, she comes to school the next day with a short crop cut. what do you HONESTLY think?
(girls) your bf has hair you love. he comes to school the next day with a shiny head. what do you HONESTLY think? i honestly think.. as dumb as this sounds.. thats his way of showing you that your relationship is really over. im not even joking. if your boy KNOWS you love his hair, and he grows it FOR YOU.. cutting it off can only mean he doesnt love you anymore. that was the clincher for me. bc he didnt even tell me he had cut it- it was just gone. and when i saw it, i just knew it was really over. it was just really symbolic.
54.pizza or burgers? cheeseburger pizza!!! omg that pizza was soo fucking good.
56.what's something you ALWAYS have on you? my silver moon necklace, bc it keeps me safe. after the car accident, i was petrified of driving anwhere with anyone, so my mom gave me this necklace with the moon and an angel to wear, and i hold it whenever i get nervous and it just makes me feel better.
. 58.do you stay in bed thinking or do you fall alseep in 5 seconds? omg. i have never ever fell asleep within like 30 minutes of lying down. unless under different circumstances, like im super exhausted or im drunk.. lol. but all i do is think and think about everything. and i never get any sleep!
62. your bf/gf gets drunk at a party. in their state of drunkness, they babble about that one time they fooled around with someone else while you were together. they wake up the next morning with a slight memory that they did something stupid. what do you do? get pissed he didnt tell me sooner. bc thats what i would be the most angry about. if you think something happened, or i especially specifically ASK if something happened and he says no.. and later i find out that wasnt true.. i will not even give a shit about what happened. i will be pissed i wasnt told about it. drunken nights can always be forgiven in my book. lies cannot.
64.how do you react to change? i think badly. bc if i dont like the change, ill mope around foreverrrr whining about how i wish it was last summer or whatever. lol. or ill say constantly how i miss the way things were.
65.are you happy? i dont kno anymore. i have moments where im like, happy for a few minutes. but most of the time im just kinda going thru the motions. i ve been a little on the depressed side for a while. nothing major, but, you kno how it is. boy problems, family problems, work problems, missing certain people and places and things..
70.what do you think of knuckle cracking? i think its a lie that it will give you arthritis. bc youre just popping bubbles of co2.. right?
71.what was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? omg the real world. it KILLED me. dannys mother died, and omg they showed the past phone convo he had with her and she was sooo happy to hear from him and at the end she said please call me again i love you so much danny.. and he was just like yea. i gotta go. and he hung up!!!!! omg it was awful. soo sad!!
73.how's you happiness level right now? 0 (low)- 10 (high) um. i guess like a 3 or so.
75.wouldn't you just love to hug someone right now? you dont even kno.. i LOVE hugs. i am soo in need of a hug like right now, 5 minutes from now, and so on.
76.who was the last person who complimented you? i dunno.. i think my mom prob.
77.what's wrong with your school? they over accepted people, especially for psych, so half of us couldnt get into this one class we needed to graduate, so we got stuck taking it this fall. and not graduating with our class. and also graduating in december. how depressing is it graduating in DECEMBER??? without all your friends??
78.do you know what an aphrodisiac is? aph·ro·di·si·ac adj. Arousing or intensifying sexual desire.
79.who do you wish you could kiss? thats a pretty long list. wouldnt want to bore you with the details.. moving right along.. |
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| a long ass survey |
[Aug. 3rd, 2005|11:37 pm] |
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i was extremely bored. so i started the longest survey known to people. ill post it in sections.. since im filling it out in sections... im not THAT much of a nerd that i just sit around and fill out the entire thing at once!
time now: 10:59 pm.. wednesday.
About You
1- Full Name: wow.. i remember filling these guys out practically every week in high school.. and i went all out too.. id have it all different colors and everything.. haha. okay.. my name is ashley elizabeth josephine "sonic" spaloss.
2- Eye Color: hazel.. but most of the time they have a green tint to them.
3- Hair Color: blonde.. but over the years its gotten darker.
4- Height: now heres something that hasnt changed since high school.. 5'2!
5- Glasses/Contacts: neither. well ok i lie. i wear glasses sometimes when im driving. they make me look sexy and smart!
6- Braces: never.
7- Age: 22
8- DOB: 2-22-83
9- Zodiac Sign: picses
10- Family (Name, Age): well theres my mommy and my daddy.. and im not sure of their ages.. but they were like 20 when they had me so.. figure it out. and my 2 brothers nick and matt who are.. growing up too fast. 15 and 16.
Favorites
11- Favorite Number: it has been the number 9, since the early 90's when adam graves was on the ny rangers. and ive worn that number on every jersey i ever had. i also have the 9 off my hockey jersey in a frame autographed by tony hawk.. along with adam graves' players card and a note he wrote and autographed to ME..
12- Favorite Food: home made mashed potatoes! and, as weird as this is, those salisbury steak dinners you buy in the frozen food section. seriously. this has been my fave meal since i was about 10.
13- Favorite Drink: i think it will just always be twisted tea.. just bc of all the memories. i sware to you, ill have one now, and the second i open it up and take that first sip, im in the picnic room playing beer pong again. funnest times EVER.
14- Favorite Book: i cant read books.. bc it drives me nuts to keep starting and stopping. i would have to read it completely thru without stopping. reading a book over a time span of like a week, would be like starting a movie, but only watching like 5 min of it everyday.
15- Favorite Car: MY PONY, of course! but i also like old ponies.. the 60's ones and the shelby. and 60's corvettes. and now my fave cars are the 350z, the car of the year, a bunch of random sporty ones, and.. the 2007 shelby mustang cobra.
16- Favorite Flavor of Chips: ketchup! haha. but really, sour cream and cheddar.
17- Favorite Flavor of Pop: i dont drink soda anymore. its too sugary. it gives me a headache.
18- Favorite Cookie: the choc chip cookies dave used to make last year for my picnics at the stadium. i had a cookie this year.. and it was not even close.
19- Favorite Restaurant (and Fast Food Place): the outback and johnny carinos.. and for fast food.. SONICS!! haha. awesomest slushies EVER.
20- Favorite Color: i go thru phases. sadly, im out of my orange phase.. and into yellow. lol.
1.do you shave? of course i shave, do i look french to you?
2.what do you shave? i shave the hair off my skin.
3.why? for silky smoothness.
4.what colour is your razor? well, right now its a pink disposable, which i hate. bcos i left my venus at the apt, along with MANY other things i needed at home bc i was so discombobulated over things i found out that weekend..
5.what size is your bed? at home its a twin. at school its a full size futon.
6.do you like it? yes i do. i like the little one better bcos all i do is curl up against the wall anyways, so a big mattress wastes space. and i like the futon bcos its nice and firm.
7.you're going on a date for a walk around the lake then a coffee at a cafe. what do you wear FROM your closet? my hair will be clipped up in colorful ties and clips, ill wear my yellow tank that makes my boobs look awesomely huge, my longish flowing fun light green flowery skirt and my old, worn sandals that i looove.
8.Would you go naked in a bathtub with a naked old man/woman with each of you having a bar of soap and soap each other till the bars of soap run out for a million dollars? sure.. why not.
9.if you woke up one morning and found out you were going to stay in the body you have now for the rest of your life, what would you think? i would think damn. i wish i was taller.
10. letter or e-mail? i like letters cos theyre fun to get in the mail and i have nice handwriting. lol. and also i can draw little comics or something.
11.of world war III broke out, what would you say? i dunno.. maybe like .. this sucks?
12.have you ever gone skinny dipping? hahha. well, almost. i had on a thong, okay?
13.which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? lauren. jamie. mandy. my mom. and theres currently a vacant spot waiting for a customer.
14.what's something a guy/girl will wear that'll turn you off? WAY too much cologne
15. what's something a guy/girl will wear that'll turn you on? just enough cologne!
16. what do you think of soulmates? i dunno anymore. i think that i think its a load of crap now. which is sad, bc i used to think it were true..
17.florida or cali? florida.. but ive never been to cali so i cant really say.
18. have you ever ridden a roller coaster? doi. first 1000 to ride kingda ka!!!
19.is cussing a neccesity in life? you kno, i think "bad words" are the one of the stupidest things ive ever heard. whats the point? oh dont say fuck.. its a BAD word. no.. thats retarded. you wanna kno what a bad word is?? words like knife and gnome are bad words. silent k and g my ass. just stop confusing everyone and get rid of the silent letters!
to be continued.. |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2005|04:43 pm] |
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1. What is your current ringtone?
coheed and cambria
2. What is your current wallpaper?:
a palm tree at the beach
3. Do you own a picture phone?
no. i thought they were dumb when i got my phone.. but now i want one!
4. If so, what was the last picture you took?
doi.
5. Go to your text message inbox and type what the 10th says.
its from laur and it says "hahaha yea thats true! sorry!"
6. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
40
7. Go to your missed calls. 5th missed call...who is it?
philip.. whoops.
8. Who was the last person you spoke to on your cell phone?
my mommy
9. What service do you have?
verizon
10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service?
5
11. Who's on your speed dial number 5?
oh jeez. phil is.
12. Do you have voicemail?
yes
13. How many contacts that start with the letter D do you have:
2
14. Who do you call the most???
probably mikey. lol. im a texter.
15. How many text messages do you get a month?
200.. but i ALWAYS go over.
16. Can you send pictures?
nope.
17. What are the last 4 digits to your number?
2472
18. Go to your sent texts, what does the eighth one say?
haha.. its says "yea. whatever! im soo mad at you and nicki right now!" bc they desserted me alone at the stadium.. but then i got over when i got to keep all the tips to myself!
19. What about the 15th?
it says "well okay i forgive you! dont text and drive!"
20. Who's the last person that you called?
everyone is going to yell at me if i say it. but he didnt pick up, so it doesnt really count!!
21. Last person to leave a voicemail?
probably mikey.
22. Last person that texted you?
mandy
23. Last person you added to your contacts?
i think josh..
24. How many minutes are on your plan?
im not really sure.. i think 500 thou.
25. Do you like your phone?
yes i love my phone! cos i can use it as a mirror. haha. but id like it a little more if it were a camera phone too. |
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| ..im sorry i took every word you said to be a promise.. |
[Jul. 22nd, 2005|07:27 pm] |
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its 729.. and im waiting for lauren and mandy to come pick me up. i have not been this excited to go somewhere in so long. i am SO EXCITED! i dont even really kno why.. ive just been so depressed i guess lately about a lot of things.. i miss being at rowan with all my friends there soo much. and i miss everyone form the campground so much. jackson really sucks. i never ever go out anywhere, cos no ones here. all ive been doing is working.. 830-130, then like 4 to god only knows when. thanks god, bcos i literally have 10 doallrs in my bank account right now! next friday will be like, the greatest day of my life when i get my two HUGE checks. then ill be able to pay bills and pay back everyone i owe money to. and then ill be back to like 10 dollars in my account.. but.. whatever.
i feel like a dork saying this, but you guys have NO IDEA how much i miss all my friends. when i had to leave everyone last weekend when i was down at school, i cried the whole way home. and right now im so incredibly happy to be going camping, im practically in tears. i LOVE my friends. haha. and im really glad theyre all true friends too, making sure i dont do stupid things and telling me things i should kno.. even if it does hurt.
but anyways.. ive been happy again lately. work is fun again. i was actually SAD when the homestand was over! i LOVE rec more than the kids do sometimes.. lol. and. tonight. i had to put my belt on the LAST inside hole. i dont kno what im going to do in another week or two when theres no more holes left! haha. well time for going.. mandy should be here any minute!!!!! |
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[Jun. 22nd, 2005|12:00 am] |
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wow.. where have i been?
so apparently kingda ka is shut down forever. well, either that or a few weeks. bcos the control sparked and shut down.. or the hydraulic launch pipe shattered.. or the train didnt make it up the hill so it came back down, but the brakes failed so it crashed into all the other trains.. or bcos the trains were moving SOOOOO fast.. they were welding to the track. and im serious.. those are all of the rumors ive actually heard the past few weeks. and the people telling them to me.. were serious. yea...
last week, my mom and her sisters had the beach house. i planned on visiting a few days, maybe spending the night once or even twice.. but.. yea. i stayed the ENTIRE week. i couldnt leave it! it was sooo nice being there. god i wish i lived at the beach. i fell asleep everynight listening to the sound of the waves crashing on the beach, and woke up every morning to the sun rising over the ocean.. at 4am. i sware to god, the sun rose there at 4am. lmao. i sat on the beach in the dark and watched the boats come in and the stars.. and i would wonder what the coastline looked like from out there. it must look nice. i would imagine it to look like christmas lights.
some funny - HILARIOUS - things happened at that house. the one night, Karyn was there and me, her and lauren were drinking. so Karyn's drizzunk and she goes "lets do shots!!" so me and laur are like "YEA!!" and she pours us watermelon shots. they were REALLY good, and we're like man are we feelin drunk. until the next morning when my mom asks "what happened to all of the NON ALCOHOLIC watermelon mix?" LMAO.
the last night we were there, i went out ot my car to get something, and there were these boys in the house across the street and they were like "hey chic" and i was like "..hi..". so of course i told lauren when i got back in, and she HAD to see what they looked like for herself. so we're trying to peek around the corner and realize we prolly look like idiots, so im like lets pretend we're getting something in your car across the street. so we walk over, and we're like yuuuup.. thats your car alright.. haha. and we start walking back to our house, when this SUV drives by. then reverses. and me and Laur are thinking "oh god.." so of course its these 2 boys. and theyre like "wheres the party??" haha. and they get out and we're talking and they ask us to go out.. lol. so we're like yea.. heres my number. lmao. they called later, and picked us up to go to this party they found. so we get fuckin wasted and theres hot boys EVERYWHERE. and laurens a drunk slut, and im a drunk slut, so we were makin out with all these random boys.. i think at one point we actually were in a group makeout session together.. lauren was escorted by this fine boy up to the master bedroom, and meanwhile, i took 2 other boys into the guest room....
okay okay.. i may have embellished the last part.. or completely made it up. but the first half was really true!! haha.
but anyways.. i wish i was still at the beach house. one day.. i will have a beach house to live in. forever. and it will be all mine.
im leaving for North Carolina and Florida on friday!!! omg im sooo excited. we're even going to DISNEY WORLD!! anyone that has been around me this past year, has heard me saying plenty of times "i want to go to disney world.." and KNOWS how badly ive been wanting to go. i am soosososoosososo excited. its gonna be a great time.
also.. after 4 long years of growing my hair out.. its long enough to donate to locks of love. so tomorro, my hair will be all gone. 12 inches! i might kinda miss it.. but its for a good cause. and it felt good all those years saying to everyone im growing it so long to donate it.. arent i such a good person?? hehehe. |
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[Jun. 10th, 2005|12:35 am] |
When your child comes home from school and turns on the television, aren't you worried about what they have turned on and are watching? Well, what if they have turned on professional wrestling? Are you concerned about the violence they are viewing or are you alright with it? From a behaviorist's point of view, children watching professional wrestling is a real danger to the child.
Behaviorism is concerned with the actual behavior of people. It focuses on the objective and observable components of behavior, such as aggression. Behaviorism also emphasizes the role of previous learning experiences in shaping behavior. One of the most powerful behavioral influences on our behavior comes from watching other people. Psychologists call this process observational learning. According to behaviorists, children who view violent television, such as professional wrestling, are more likely to engage in violent behavior.
Adults have the ability to understand that the professional wrestling they see on television is scripted and for entertainment purposes only, however, young children often cannot tell the difference between fantasy and reality. When watching professional wrestling, children are exposed to many negative behaviors, including racial stereotyping, sexual violence and simulated sex, inappropriate role models, obscene gesturing, and the idea that it is okay to settle arguments by fighting. Behaviorists feel that children who see these negative behaviors being carried out by television stars, who are their role models, behave violently in their own environment.
Many behaviorists recommend that parents limit the amount of media violence their children watch, and instead promote programs that demonstrate helping behaviors, caring, and cooperation. Just as watching violent television encourages violent behavior in children, watching cooperative and helping behavior will encourage children to behave in non violent ways. |
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| how the stadium sucks now. |
[Jun. 8th, 2005|12:16 am] |
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BiLa RoXy (11:53:58 PM): i hate the stadium.
LiLbAbE019 (11:54:16 PM): you dont hate it
LiLbAbE019 (11:55:10 PM): you know you love the stadium
BiLa RoXy (11:56:45 PM): no.. i really dispise it
BiLa RoXy (11:57:14 PM): the whole world goes to fridays last night, they invite you.. whos not even old enough to go.. but dont even ask me.
LiLbAbE019 (11:57:22 PM): oh shut up
LiLbAbE019 (11:57:24 PM): you love it
BiLa RoXy (11:59:02 PM): theres absolutely no one to flirt with, meanwhile phils off having a grand old time at work with kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate. and they go out drinking every week and have soo much fun and they call eachother when ones at work to mess around with eachother and blah blah blah.
LiLbAbE019 (11:59:40 PM): oh no
BiLa RoXy (12:00:08 AM): and its just not fun. i have no one to boss around, no responsibilities, im not there for a million hours getting ot. and i LIKED working that hard all the time. it made me feel. important.
BiLa RoXy (12:00:53 AM): and jake blalocks gone. i have no reason to go pretend i need to do something by 1st base concess when the game ends cos i dont have anyone to get all dreamy about anymore.
LiLbAbE019 (12:01:57 AM): lol.
LiLbAbE019 (12:01:59 AM): yea i know
LiLbAbE019 (12:02:05 AM): i wish we could go back to picnics..
BiLa RoXy (12:02:09 AM): and theres no cookies or watermelon or yummy lunch in the office that dave made. or delivery days or beer pong in the picnic room or twisted tea durning slash after work. theres no getting high with devon and laur and theres ABSOLUTELY NO DRAMA without devon and jess and dominic and hammer and etc there.
BiLa RoXy (12:02:26 AM): andi dont get to walk around or get tan.
BiLa RoXy (12:02:47 AM): and i dont even remember the last time i stayed late enough to be alone and sit in the empty stadium in the dark.
BiLa RoXy (12:02:51 AM): in sillence.
BiLa RoXy (12:02:59 AM): which was FANFUCKINGTASTIC.
LiLbAbE019 (12:03:08 AM): i think those old ladies who manage picnics might ... i dont know.. pass?
LiLbAbE019 (12:03:15 AM): they always look tired and shit.
BiLa RoXy (12:03:24 AM): pass?
BiLa RoXy (12:03:29 AM): what do you mean?
LiLbAbE019 (12:03:31 AM): die
LiLbAbE019 (12:03:32 AM): lol
BiLa RoXy (12:03:36 AM): oh. lol.
BiLa RoXy (12:03:42 AM): LMAO.
BiLa RoXy (12:04:01 AM): see, at least if they hired US back, they wouldnt have to worry about either of us dying on them.
LiLbAbE019 (12:04:08 AM): lol
BiLa RoXy (12:04:57 AM): i worked 16 hours every friggen day. without dying once. lol. i even had bronchitus!! and stayed alive.
LiLbAbE019 (12:05:06 AM): oh jeez.. lol
LiLbAbE019 (12:05:11 AM): write about this in your journal lol
BiLa RoXy (12:05:22 AM): hmm. perhap.
BiLa RoXy (12:05:31 AM): why you getting tired of replying to my complains?
LiLbAbE019 (12:06:00 AM): yea i am .. lol stop complaining about the stadium you know you love it deep down .. but right now you hate it .. i know i do too..
LiLbAbE019 (12:06:04 AM): lol
BiLa RoXy (12:06:17 AM): if they hired us back, wed stay alive. no problem.
BiLa RoXy (12:06:38 AM): with these old hags.. i mean cmon. theres an endless list of things that could happen to them
LiLbAbE019 (12:06:42 AM): hahahaha
BiLa RoXy (12:06:44 AM): heat stroke
BiLa RoXy (12:06:54 AM): heart attack related to stress
BiLa RoXy (12:07:10 AM): they could break a hip AT ANY MOMENT
LiLbAbE019 (12:07:21 AM): lolol
BiLa RoXy (12:07:33 AM): and i mean, serioulsy.
LiLbAbE019 (12:07:27 AM): lol
BiLa RoXy (12:07:57 AM): if they got konked in the head by a falling tent.. lets be real. they would drop dead on te spot.
BiLa RoXy (12:08:05 AM): at least you survived
LiLbAbE019 (12:08:14 AM): lmao. true
BiLa RoXy (12:08:15 AM): and came to work the very next day!! or something
LiLbAbE019 (12:08:25 AM): keep going with this.. i like this complaining. lol
BiLa RoXy (12:08:47 AM): lmao
BiLa RoXy (12:08:56 AM): yea i was rolling on the floor with the AT ANY MOMENT
BiLa RoXy (12:09:07 AM): theyll just be walking along.. and SNAP!!
BiLa RoXy (12:09:11 AM): there goes the hip
LiLbAbE019 (12:09:18 AM): lmao
BiLa RoXy (12:09:56 AM): honestly., i dont kno what they were thinking when they chose the picnic managers.
LiLbAbE019 (12:10:21 AM): i know right?
LiLbAbE019 (12:10:23 AM): wtf?
LiLbAbE019 (12:08:38 AM): how much do picnic managers make?
Wackytaffy1 (12:08:49 AM): we are all set with our managers
LiLbAbE019 (12:09:05 AM): Wackytaffy1 (12:08:56 AM): probably less then you guys
BiLa RoXy (12:11:02 AM): hmm.. young attractive LIVING girls.. or.. about to die at any time not so attractive.. in fact,, run away screaming looking old ladies??
LiLbAbE019 (12:11:10 AM): lolol
BiLa RoXy (12:12:30 AM): i betcha.. that the BCs went to like a nursing home and announced they were taking anyone who wanted to attend the knitting fair, and instead enslved them as cheap labor.
LiLbAbE019 (12:12:43 AM): lmO
LiLbAbE019 (12:12:46 AM): lmaoooooooo
LiLbAbE019 (12:12:50 AM): i love it
BiLa RoXy (12:12:50 AM): you ask those ladies.. andi bet theyll tell you the real story.
BiLa RoXy (12:13:09 AM): theyre STILL looking for their crocheting needles and yarn.
LiLbAbE019 (12:13:35 AM): lol
BiLa RoXy (12:15:05 AM): the BCs just keep telling them everyday.. its at the third base picnic.. if you light all the sternos and the grills, and set up all the tables, it will appear in the sinks after the game.. but you first have ot wash all the dishes. then.. after you bring 30 cases of soda to alll the picnic areas, there will be a rocking chair in center field... and under home plate.. will be the yarn basket..
BiLa RoXy (12:15:49 AM): and everynight, the ladies just konk out bcos theyre so exhausted before they get the chance
LiLbAbE019 (12:16:27 AM): lmaoooooo |
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[May. 24th, 2005|03:27 pm] |
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so. im back in j-town again for the summer. i miss glassboro.. kinda sorta. i plan on visiting my APT whenever im off thou.. which is pretty rare. but.
kingda ka finally opened on thursday for media day. it didnt open for people until friday.. but technically saturday. so im watchin tv thursday morning.. and its on the news and stuff. so after seeing it, i was like okay.. i just HAVE TO go watch it launch a few times today. so i text Lauren.. and of course she agrees to go with me after her class. so we head over, the nerds that we are, and are waiting for it to open, when we overhear that there are still some tickets available for season pass holders to go on it that day. so we think about it.. cos i had work at 5 and she had class at 5... so we HAD to be out of there no later than 430. we opted to go get tickets anyway.. just in case we could get on it within the next hour and a half. of course, our tickets say we'll get on it at 430. we started debating just skipping class and work bc we HAD TO go on it now, since we had tickets and all. but luckily they let us on early and there was NO wait.. it all happened so fast we didnt really have time to consider that it may be a bad idea to be the first people on it. lol. but it was SO AMAZING. we hadnt been on Top Thrill Dragster in 2 years.. so it was still extremely scary. it sucks for TTD thou, bcos it is such a better design and theme. how it makes the screeching tire sound when it launches, and the start and finish gates, and the Christmas tree.. i completely forgot about that until i watched a video of it.. but it even had the lights on the tower so you knew when you were launching. KK just has a horn- and it doesnt even have the speedometer to show how many MPH youre going!! im going to like.. write to six flags and suggest they should get one, cos that was so awesome.
anyways.. the next day, i told my brothers id pick them up from school so we could go straight there so they could ride it. it was raining, and we KNEW it wouldnt be open, cos going 128 mph in the rain would feel like bullets. but.. you kno us. of course we had to go check it out.. JUST IN CASE. but it was closed. so we went bright and early on Saturday and waited in line for 3 and a half hours to get on it. we started talking to this security guard, who said hes been on it 6 times already and hes in the commercial and all. he told us that at the top, you can see the ocean and the NYC skyline... if you open your eyes. thats pretty crazy. it ran surprisingly well while we were there, we counted 24 trains in a row that went without any problems. and the suckiest thing- Kingda Ka practically never rolls back! i was soo excited to go on it so often that id get to rollback, but ive only heard of it rolling back like twice the whole time its been open. so boo. hopefully we'll go one day when its empty and we wont be able to fill the train up enough so its not heavy enough to go over. haha.
sunday me and lauren were heading down to Rowan. and i mean.. we pass great adventure on the way.. so.. its not like we went out of our way to go there. the park was only open another half an hour. lmao. but they still let us in and said "Welcome to Six Flags.. enjoy your.. uh.. 28 minutes.." lmao. but it was "experiencing technical difficulties". the same security guard we talked to the day before recognized us and was telling us that we have to go on it at night cos its scarier cos you cant see when the tower is coming and when youre going up all you see is stars. and the NYC skyline is all lit up. so i made Laur go on nitro with me instead, cos i was feeling thrill deprived and didnt want to try to satisfy it by trying to get up to 128 mph on 295.
we had a good time at Rowan.. maybe a little too much of a good time. i didnt really eat anything all day.. and i did a shot. then we started playing 10-cup beer pong.. but i wasnt in the mood for beer.. so i just poured vodka straight out of the bottle into my cups. it didnt matter how much i poured in tho.. bc i was gone before we even started playing from the ONE shot. im such a retart. i started realizing it wasnt good to be gone after only like 10min, so i ate a cheesesteak with all this stuff on it... remind me please not to do that again. i dunno what i was thinking. so i was feeling queasy.. phil gave me a piece of bread.. then i decided it was a good time to kneel before god.. bread still in hand the whole time. at least i had a nice snack in between. after that tho, i felt great. not great enough to finish my drink.. but. lauren was passed out anyways. she prayed later that night too. haha. the next day we just hung out, then we drove home. okay, not straight home. but cmon, it was ON THE WAY! how could we resist? but of course again it was down. and even thou they got it going again, they wouldnt let anyone else on line, i guess so they could close the park before 3am. so we're up to 5 attemps and 2 rides now. itll go up. i assure you. |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2005|05:00 pm] |
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i made a my space.. im sorry live journal. i sware i will remain loyal to you thou.
as if i need ANOTHER thing to keep up with..
im totally supposed to be doing a paper that is due.. uh 18 minutes ago. but of course.. what am i doing?
ahh procrastination. my best friend.
so anywho.. visit me and add me to your friends list over at my space. cos currently i have "one friends" and its very depressing since it assumes everyone has friend plural.. which aparently i dont have. so. yea. my my space is quite boring.. so.. dont be expecting too much.
http://profiles.myspace.com/users/19310707 |
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[Feb. 5th, 2005|06:36 pm] |
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does anyone remember where the name "spash" came from? i mean.. i kno where the letters came from. but.. who and how did it get made up? hmm.. someone remind me!! PLEASE!! |
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[Feb. 5th, 2005|05:51 pm] |
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wow.. guess i got a little lost since .. uh september 12?!?!?! sorry.. its not like anyone missed anything..
i havent updated.. cos.. well.. my life got really boring all of a sudden. i was reading past entries of beer pong every weekend.. even beer pong on weekdays and then crawling to my AM classes.. what happened to Team Awesome??
i miss Blueclaws- cos- there was always something entertaining there and a lot of good jokes.. haha. like stinky legumes and ashley squared and.. you kno. i miss seeing Lauren everyday! we always laugh so much about everything.
yea.. didnt make it to wing bowl. Poor Lauren couldnt come down cos she was sickly.. Jamie had work friday.. so i figured it wouldnt be as fun being the only girl. the boys went.. but.. didnt even get in.
ill be an old lady very soon. 22 on the 22 of 02. thats a hell of a lot of 2's. hopefully ill have a big party.. but. no one around here seems to want to party anymore. its quite depressing.
i had this weird dream last night about the new roller coaster. (yea, i kno. im obsessed. my friends tell me everyday when i check the website and watch the video for it.) so anyways, we went to the park like the day it opened and it was me, Lauren, my little bro Matt and my dad. Lauren was too scared to go on it.. lol. so me and my bro started getting on. but it was soo strange- the train was vertical and to get on it you had to climb on top of all the people already strapped in, and there were some jerks who would grab your ass and stuff. lol. so then you slip your legs into these elastic harnesses and you slide your body in and strap your arms in and there were a whole line of trains constantly loading. so it pulls you up to the top of the hill, and then launches you down it, but they had added more track and stuff so it was different. also, they built a new superman ride there and all the tracks werent connected so the train was just supposed to jump and connect on to the next track piece, and it was a pretty big gap!! and over water. so i was like.. yea theres no way in hell im going on that!! but all the trains made it across.. so. i guess it was safe.. lol. so we're on the new top thrill dragster ride... hehe.. and the train im on jumps the track right after we launch- at the TOP of the hill and we're falling head first down into the station! it was awful. i was thinking omg.. im going to die on a rollercoaster.. awesome.. yet not. and then i was really hoping it wouldnt hurt as the ground got closer.. i prayed i would just die instantaniously. and then i woke up.
but. anyway. less than 2 months til that shit opens. lmao. who wants to come?? hehehe. i hope one time when im on it, we dont make it over the hill and fall backwards! strange thing to hope for.. i kno.. but. it would be soo scary. i remember when we got on line for top thrill dragster the train didnt make it over the hill and everyone in line with us started screaming and we were all thinking "holy shit! all those people are going to die!" and i thought we might too, cos it would like, make the station explode. But luckily, the possibility of the train not making it over was already accounted for so they stopped. haha. but they were soo freaked out! and then they had to get launched again and try to make it. haha. that train did, but later that night these poor other people didnt make it, and they tried like 3 times before they just unloaded them and ran tests. but.. it would add some excitement to go backwards. not to mention an extra ride!
oh well. thats about it for now.. told ya my life was extremely boring. ill keep all y'all posted on a possible bday party thou.. so.. tata for now. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2004|10:02 pm] |
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im pissing my pants.
2005 Roller Coaster Central Website:
Information (as speculated so far):
Speculated Name: Maxxx
Designer: Intamin AG
Ride Type: Hydraulic Launch
Length: 2,480 feet
Colors: Aqua Blue, Lime Green, Dark Blue
"Parts for the all new coaster have begun to arrive and sources say that they appear to look similar to "Top Thrill Dragster". There are some large steel tubular pieces as well as small pedestal footers on site. Also new signs have started to appear mentioning an all new attraction for next season. To view photos, click here."
"An anoynomous source for Great Adventure Source has claimed that the park's new roller coaster for 2005 will break two records; world's fastest and tallest roller coaster. The title of both fastest and tallest coaster is currently held by Top Thrill Dragster at Cedar Point which reaches 120 miles per hour and tops out at a height of 420 feet. The most probable type of coaster to acheive this is an Intamin hydraulic launch rocket coaster. Nothing, of course, is set in stone. Given the track length, however, this current rumor holds plenty of weight."
"Another very large support can be reminiscing of those large backbone supports on Top Thrill."
"We know for sure that Six Flags Great Adventure is getting a new major coaster for the 2005 season. They have taken delivery of support poles and what look like track sections. Speculation is that this will be a Top Thrill Dragster-type ride. A gate guard there yesterday told me what he knew - 450 feet high."
"Tons of rebar frames are onsite, ready for welding into the interior structures of the footers. The huge footer hole on closer inspection is really segmented into three distinct footers in a triangular arrangement, with two legs lined up with the track center lines, and the third centered and behind the other two, just like the tower for Top Thrill Dragster."
i discovered all this at random roller coaster websites. i am sooo incredibly excited that i cannot even sit still. in the ride central rumor room, someone said Great Adventure will have the press release October 11.. but.. yea. note that it was posted in the RUMOR ROOM. so who the hell knows. i hope its earlier bcos i cannot wait that long!!! its killing me. i NEED TO KNOW what theyre building!!
yea, i kno you all think im a huge loser for being so incredibly overly obsessed about a roller coaster. but you dont even kno. and youll never kno unless you go to Ohio and go on Top Thrill Dragster. i was looking at Grad Schools near Cedar Point Ohio JUST so i could get a Season Pass and ride it everyday, all day. lmao. ok not really... but i would!!
so. if this new roller coaster at MY park is anything like TTD.. omg. i will so be there everyday. im going to write to the man and tell him i want to test ride it. haha. i sware to god.. if they have any sweepstake thingers to be the first riders on it like they did with Superman.. i am entering like 5million times under all different aliases. haha.
IM SO EXCITED!!! |
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[Sep. 9th, 2004|07:45 pm] |
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| | oye me canto!! lol | ] |
i just had to add this convo in cos i was laughing my ass off for a good half hour...
BiLa RoXy (7:03:07 PM): who is that song by??
BiLa RoXy (7:03:14 PM): im really looking up lyrics. lmao
BiLa RoXy (7:03:19 PM): im gonna sing along
LiLbAbE019 (7:03:32 PM): NORE ft nina sky
BiLa RoXy (7:03:38 PM): ok
LiLbAbE019 (7:03:50 PM): i had the lyrics let me see if i still do lol
LiLbAbE019 (7:07:03 PM): http://www.lyricsxp.com/lyrics/o/oye_mi_canto_n_o_r_e_ft_nina_sky_and_tego_calderon.html
BiLa RoXy (7:07:17 PM): yes
LiLbAbE019 (7:07:26 PM): lol
LiLbAbE019 (7:07:57 PM): lmao i can see you singing along right now
LiLbAbE019 (7:08:02 PM): hhahaha im pissing my pants
BiLa RoXy (7:08:06 PM): hahahha
BiLa RoXy (7:08:20 PM): oh ill kno em just as well as you kno that work out song
LiLbAbE019 (7:08:30 PM): lmao.. ok
BiLa RoXy (7:14:43 PM): lmao
LiLbAbE019 (7:16:04 PM): haha
BiLa RoXy (7:16:21 PM): LMFAOROTF
LiLbAbE019 (7:16:34 PM): ???????
LiLbAbE019 (7:16:46 PM): whats so funny?
BiLa RoXy (7:16:53 PM): boricua means colored person
LiLbAbE019 (7:17:00 PM): DUH!!!
LiLbAbE019 (7:17:09 PM): you didnt know that?? lmao
BiLa RoXy (7:17:16 PM): uh no.
BiLa RoXy (7:17:18 PM): shut up
BiLa RoXy (7:17:19 PM): LOSER
LiLbAbE019 (7:17:26 PM): lololol
LiLbAbE019 (7:17:30 PM): your tooo funny
LiLbAbE019 (7:17:36 PM): you know the whole song now? lmao
BiLa RoXy (7:17:44 PM): When I Bone Shorty I Slap Ass And Listen
BiLa RoXy (7:18:05 PM): A Rump In The Ass She Shouts
LiLbAbE019 (7:18:18 PM): is that the spanish to english? lol
BiLa RoXy (7:19:38 PM): lmao yea
LiLbAbE019 (7:19:44 PM): haha funny
LiLbAbE019 (7:19:53 PM): spanish people arre funny
BiLa RoXy (7:19:59 PM): lollol
LiLbAbE019 (7:20:00 PM): lolol
BiLa RoXy (7:21:05 PM): Lauren est une putain, mais je l'aime toujours.
LiLbAbE019 (7:21:21 PM): oh god.. what does that mean?
BiLa RoXy (7:21:25 PM): j'aime baiser.
LiLbAbE019 (7:21:57 PM): english please
BiLa RoXy (7:21:59 PM): bébé de l'OH oui. oui vous giflez cet âne.
LiLbAbE019 (7:22:07 PM): !!
LiLbAbE019 (7:22:09 PM): lol
BiLa RoXy (7:22:23 PM): fermez la chienne.
LiLbAbE019 (7:22:34 PM): ok im done talking to you
LiLbAbE019 (7:22:35 PM): lol
BiLa RoXy (7:22:49 PM): pénis ! ! ! !
BiLa RoXy (7:22:51 PM): lol
LiLbAbE019 (7:23:01 PM): PENIS!
BiLa RoXy (7:23:06 PM): k it says from top to bottom
BiLa RoXy (7:23:14 PM): lauren is a whore, but i still love her
BiLa RoXy (7:23:17 PM): i love to fuk
BiLa RoXy (7:23:25 PM): oh yea baby. you slap that ass
LiLbAbE019 (7:23:32 PM): lmao.
BiLa RoXy (7:23:34 PM): shut up bitch
BiLa RoXy (7:23:35 PM): and
BiLa RoXy (7:23:41 PM): i think you can figure out the last one
LiLbAbE019 (7:23:51 PM): lol .. yeaaa
LiLbAbE019 (7:24:08 PM): fermez la chienne i like this one
LiLbAbE019 (7:24:11 PM): lol
BiLa RoXy (7:24:22 PM): omg
BiLa RoXy (7:24:29 PM): boobies is idiots in french!!!!!
LiLbAbE019 (7:24:44 PM): are you serious? lmao oh god you are having toooo much fun with thi
BiLa RoXy (7:24:44 PM): i cant stop laughting
LiLbAbE019 (7:24:45 PM): s
LiLbAbE019 (7:24:46 PM): lol
BiLa RoXy (7:24:51 PM): hu
BiLa RoXy (7:24:52 PM): htdfhtdhdfgdfhgdrhsr
LiLbAbE019 (7:25:00 PM): lol
LiLbAbE019 (7:25:03 PM): doorrrk
BiLa RoXy (7:25:10 PM): i tried to do chinese but i had to dl stuff
LiLbAbE019 (7:25:16 PM): lol.. yea
LiLbAbE019 (7:25:31 PM): omg i stilll cant believe i saw ______ today.. hes hot. lol..
BiLa RoXy (7:25:32 PM): you have big mésange
BiLa RoXy (7:25:38 PM): really?!!!!!!
BiLa RoXy (7:25:40 PM): what what?
LiLbAbE019 (7:25:49 PM): lol yea.. how old was he?
LiLbAbE019 (7:25:53 PM): well is he?
BiLa RoXy (7:26:09 PM): uh
BiLa RoXy (7:26:18 PM): junior?
LiLbAbE019 (7:26:27 PM): dayumn thats itt?!?!
BiLa RoXy (7:26:31 PM): lol
LiLbAbE019 (7:26:34 PM): phew. id hit that shit.
LiLbAbE019 (7:26:36 PM): lmao
BiLa RoXy (7:26:36 PM): cradle robber!
BiLa RoXy (7:26:40 PM): vbidusboAGbea
LiLbAbE019 (7:26:44 PM): lol noooooooooooooo
BiLa RoXy (7:27:08 PM): frappez cette merde
BiLa RoXy (7:27:12 PM): "hit that shit"
BiLa RoXy (7:27:14 PM): lol
LiLbAbE019 (7:27:20 PM): lmao.
LiLbAbE019 (7:27:25 PM): loser!
BiLa RoXy (7:27:41 PM): schlagen Sie diese Scheiße
BiLa RoXy (7:27:43 PM): haha
LiLbAbE019 (7:27:57 PM): i think i see schlong
LiLbAbE019 (7:27:58 PM): ?
LiLbAbE019 (7:28:01 PM): lmao
BiLa RoXy (7:28:04 PM): ich liebe den Penis
BiLa RoXy (7:28:08 PM): i love the penis
LiLbAbE019 (7:28:13 PM): lol.
BiLa RoXy (7:28:18 PM): now in german!
LiLbAbE019 (7:28:35 PM): i need to do some homework.. so it wont all add up this weekend.. so ill talk to you later.
LiLbAbE019 (7:28:48 PM): lol.. sorry my fun loving german/spanish weirdo
LiLbAbE019 (7:28:49 PM): lol
BiLa RoXy (7:28:51 PM): ich denke, daß ich schlong sehe
BiLa RoXy (7:29:01 PM): booooooooo
LiLbAbE019 (7:29:12 PM): lmao oh hello chris T
LiLbAbE019 (7:29:13 PM): lol
BiLa RoXy (7:29:16 PM): hi
LiLbAbE019 (7:29:31 PM): i have to drop the cosby kids off anyway. so ill talk to you later
LiLbAbE019 (7:29:48 PM): lol.. hahaha
BiLa RoXy (7:29:48 PM): Auf Wiedersehen mein krankes Gespräch des Freunds zu Ihnen bald.
BiLa RoXy (7:30:00 PM): (goodbye my friend, ill talk to you soon)
BiLa RoXy (7:30:05 PM): lmao
LiLbAbE019 (7:30:07 PM): BYE ASHLEY.. ill talk to you later tonight.. lololol
LiLbAbE019 (7:30:10 PM): you are too funny
BiLa RoXy (7:30:11 PM): just TRY reading it outloud
BiLa RoXy (7:30:13 PM): its funny
LiLbAbE019 (7:30:33 PM): lmao yea its funnnyy..
BiLa RoXy (7:30:36 PM): haha
LiLbAbE019 (7:30:37 PM): lol.. ttyl. xoxoxo
BiLa RoXy (7:30:38 PM): ok bye
LiLbAbE019 (7:30:42 PM): byeee
^ a result of weird mooded Ashley. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2004|06:54 pm] |
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ive come to the conclusion that i really, really miss playing field hockey. i really want to play again, but i still havent been able to find a place that has Rec teams. maybe this year ill go to more games. a week ago, we did the treasure hunt for tuition on campus, cos we thought hey.. why not? (and we ALMOST won too. like.. seriously.) anyways, im running around looking for a clue, when i run into this girl and she asks me if i went to Jackson. i have nooo idea who it is, but im like yea. and she goes you played field hockey, right? and im like yea.. and shes like "i remember watching you play when i was a Freshman and you were a Senior! you were soo good." i could not believe it. i want to play SO BAD.
the other night, i had this really really strange dream. my family and i were going to Disney World and for some reason my mom and my brothers were flying there and me and my dad were going to drive down. but the date of the flight was September 11, and i was soo scared that the whole thing would happen again, so i didnt want them to get on the plane that day. i kept telling my parents to fly a different day but they wouldnt and i couldnt sleep and stuff. so the day of the flight, we all go i guess to see them off or whatever, and im still trying so hard to make them not get on a plane that day. i keep imagining what my life would be like without my mom and brothers too and i was really upset. Before they board, theres these 2 guys talking, waiting for their flight and theyre saying how strange it is that their flight is on the same planes as 9-11 and at the same time it happened, only at night- and that was the flight my family was on! so i started really freaking out and being really scared that 9-11 was gonna happen all over again. it was so weird. so thats when i woke up, and it was the middle of the night and i was too scared to go back to sleep, cos sometimes if im dreaming this huge story and i wake up, it will continue from where it left off when i fall asleep again. and i didnt want to see like crashing planes with my family on it. so i dunno where the hell that came from.
i need to start thinking about where i want to go to Grad School and whether or not i want my PsyD or PhD or masters or WHAT. im so confused. i also have to take my GREs.. which im extremely nervous about. just kill me already... |
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[Aug. 28th, 2004|12:15 am] |
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summers over. it makes me kinda sad. no.. no. it makes me a lot sad. i never even got to go to the beach.. i love the beach too much to not go.
im moving back to school Sunday. im expecting this year to be the best year ever. i love my friends. i dont think im quite ready to start classes again thou. all the homework, and reading, and studying for tests. and going to class.. better stock up on the batteries for gameboy. and download Frogger and Texas Hold 'em on my phone. lol. i cant wait to play beer pong like.. everyday again. have poker games and win some money. play video games all day. skip class to skateboard. lol. okay now im excited about going back! haha.
i will miss Blueclaws thou.. i guess. this time last year, i was bawling on my last night of work. i remember it was the greatest night of the summer thou. we all stayed late and played beer pong in the players batting cages.. on a real ping pong table. we played 100 cup.. i dont remember if i won or lost, but i got the water cup dumped on me for once. and the goodbye.. i cried for hours after leaving that night. i dont think ill really be upset this year.. we'll see. i definately wont be hysterically crying like last year thou.
last night, Justin played at Fritz's bar. it was SO GREAT. a bunch of the campground crew was there, and Justin sang all the songs that remind us of the old days of camping. a huge fire, all of us sitting around it, and him playing his guitar and singing. i love those memories. i really miss camping. i really miss everyone. while i was packing tonight, i happened to come across really really old pictures of all of us at the campground. i cant believe how little we all were then. i feel like i grew up too fast. i want to go back. but i want to go back knowing everything i kno now.. do a few things a little differently. or just be there all over again and do the same exact things all over. sigh. new subject.. im getting depressed...
on Wednesday me, Lauren, Kevin and Peru went to New YOrk City. we took the train.. forgetting it took like 2 and a half hours to get there. we thought it would be interesting to experience the subway.. cos we never have. so we're all excited and just pick a random gate to swipe our little metro cards through, only to realize it was the wrong track. lol. so we left. and experienced the taxi. that was fun times. CRAZY DRIVER!! lol. it was nuts. we all squished in the backseat cos none of us wanted to sit in the front. we're such dorks. so we went to Ground Zero. it was my first time there since 9-11 actually. it was pretty eerie. the twin towers were just.. missing. it was really sad. when we decided to leave there, we thought we'd give the subway another try. so we were very careful and actually picked the right track this time, and we're all going through the turnstyles and my card is having some issues swiping, so im like 3 steps behind Lauren. i get through the things and look up only to see the doors of the subway close. with Lauren and Kev and Rodrigo inside it. and me outside of it. just standing there. with my jaw on the floor. staring through the glass at the 3 of them. all with their jaws on the floor. and it leaves. i sware, right now it is one of the funniest things that ive ever seen in my life- ill never ever forget the look on their faces. but at the time, i was about ready to cry bcos i here i was, in a subway station- lost in new york without my sidekick Mary-Kate. lol. i almost put both my hands to my face and screamed. i had to keep reminding myself that i was 21 years old and not a little kid to keep from crying. so i get on the next subway. i have no fucking clue where to get off. im trying desperately to call or txt Lauren but.. its the subway. we're underground. in tunnels. completely surrounded by concrete walls. not so much service was happening. so im sitting there, trying to think where i should get off and what i should do, when at like 2 stops later i see Laur and the guys and they see me and they RUN to me and im jumping up and down and the jump into the train and we all group hug and we're screaming for joy.. it was quite the reunion. i cant imagine what all the other people on the train were thinking.. lmao. |
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[Aug. 19th, 2004|09:31 pm] |
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| | thrice | ] |
my dad just showed me this INTERESTING article in today's paper:
COASTER FANS ABUZZ ABOUT THEME PARK'S "SECRET"
JACKSON- Officials at the local Six Flags family entertainment complex are not talking.. but roller coaster fans are.
So, while there is no official word on what new attraction is under construction at the Great Adventure theme park, speculation among coaster riders is it is a "rocket coaster" made by the Swiss company Intamin.
The new coaster is speculated to be similar to the Storm Runner in Hershey Park and TOP THRILL DRAGSTER at Cedar Point, Ohio...
yes, i said TOP THRILL DRAGSTER.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TOP THRILL DRAGSTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so.. yea. im going absolutely nuts over here!! along with my brothers.. and Lauren cos she was my first phone call and we screamed over it on the phone with eachother. So far, they kno the track is about 2,500 feet long- which is about 320 feet short of Top Thrill Dragster.. but hey. if Six Flags built a coaster taller or the same as the one in Ohio, what bragging rights would we have to say we've been on THE tallest, fastest roller coaster in the country?
i remember when they were building Nitro.. they kept that a secret for awhile too, even thou everyone could see the track pieces in the employee parking lot all summer long. They came out with Superman in October the year before it opened, so im HOPING we'll know about this new one soon! if its anything like Top Thrill Dragster.. omg. i cant even imagine. i will be there every single day of my life riding it! theres NO WAY this new one can be as good as Ohio's.. but.. its still extremely exciting considering at LEAST once a day me and Laur STILL say we want to go back to Ohio to ride it- and we went over a year ago!!
i want to test ride it. im emailing Great Adventure RIGHT NOW, to tell them. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2004|09:25 pm] |
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| | new odd project cd | ] |
whoa. FUN WEEK. i wish i could remember it all. lol. no seriously.. we had SOOOO much fun this whole week. it all started last Wednesday when i went down to my new apartment ot move a few things in and spend a few days there. Me and Jamie painted the walls!!!!! its soo awesome. one wall is mint green and another wall is creamsicle orange. its soo funny. we also got chalkboard paint to make chalkboards on the walls and glow in the dark paint too. out apt is going to be the coolest place ever. i cant wait to move in for good.
Friday i met everyone at the Campground and we went to Vincenzos for dinner and then.. the drinkfest began. lol. we got wasted every single night after that! it was amazing. i really wish i could remember the funny drunk things that happened but.. you kno how it is. beer pong got rained out the second night so we started playing Circle of death aka ring of fire aka kings and texas hold 'em and 7, 11 or doubles. one night, we're just laying in the tent and Jay decides he needs to throw up so, without unzippering the tent, he dives right on through the door and broke the zipper. it was great. me and Mandy played Scene It one night in Joanies trailer while majorly intoxicated. it was sooo funny. then we got hit real hard by that hurricane Charley man. dude, we thought we were gonna fly away in those 0 mile per hour winds we had. the parents were seriously considering going home and making us leave with them but we knocked some sense into them luckily. we had a lot of rain which sucked.. but we moved the tent onto mandys deck underneath her awning so.. we stayed dry. while we slept at least. lol. oh god.. and there were these fat black lesbians there for the wkend.. and its later in the day.. and i decide to chillax in the hot tub. im throwing water on my face and just completely immersing myself in the hot water.. when i hear everyone else standing by the pool yelling "omg!! are you seriuos? thats disgusting!!" so Laur and Mandy come over and tell me.. that Jess the lifeguard just informed them how the two lesbians were getting it on in the hot tub!! i screamed and jumped like 12 feet out of the thing and jumped in the pool and took a scalding hot shower like 8 times and.. ewwwwwww. so all weekend the lesbians were "my friends" bcos i got to swim in their pussy juices. lmao.
Sunday night me, Jay and Mandy went to AC. we were playing the Wheel of Fortune slots and some Chinese game.. Sic BO.. lol.. Jay kept guessing every single number the di were gonna add up to somehow, but me and Mandy were too scared to listen to him and lost anyways. so we're about to leave having lost all our money we brought, when i get this urge to play the Wheel of Fortune slots again. so we go to an ATM, and i go thru the whole processing thing for it to tell me it was out of cash or whatever. so im thinking its a sign from God that i shouldnt gamble anymore money, but i ignore him. lol. whats he kno anyways? haha. so i go across the casino to another ATm. on my first play at the slots, i get a Spin and it lands on like 75- so i won all my money back. lol. i cash it all out (which sounded SO COOL) and keep switching to other machines and i wound up getting Spin 2 more times and got another 60 or so quarters back. it was SO awesum. not that i won a whole lot of money.. it came out to 44 dollars, but still. it was exciting to win something!! so after that, i was in a spending mood and bought Mandy and Jay their beer and food and stuff the rest of the time. it was soo much friggen fun. oh yea, and sometime in September...
PRICE IS RIGHT at Showboat!!! we're all going!! its $25 bucks a ticket, or you can sign up and spend $25 bucks at their casino for a ticket. sooo... if you wanna come.. which i knooo you do.. COME!!
Monday. we go to the mall, meet Philip there. i bought Topple and Poker chips. lmao. so.. we go back to the Cg and are in the middle of Texas Hold 'em when Laurens mom calls.. to tell us that we've been kicked out of the campground bcos we were too loud and all the underage drinking and whatnot going on all weekend and the night before. we were SO upset.. cos we were gonna build a fire and roast marshmallows since it was THE FIRST NIGHT it wasnt raining and hit up the beach and the boardwalk the next day. i mean.. WHO gets kicked out of the campground after we've all been going there for like 8-12 years? so of course none of us want to go home. and i look at Phil. and say "well.. go prepare the apartment for a party." it was GREAT. so we start packing up all our shit and throwing it into our cars, and Nicole and her sis Jess get there cos they were coming to drink with us and go out ot dinner that night. we told them what happened and talked them into coming out to my aprtment, which was about an hour away form the Cg, with us- even thou Nic had crew practice at 6am in AC the next morning!! she loves us. haha. first we all followed eachother to the Outback.. got majorly lost. it was hilarious. imagine 6 cars all trying to follow eachother thru traffic. so we all get separated of course and Nic makes it there, and Mandy and Jay get to a hotel and me and Lauren meet them 2 there. im behind Laur and we're driving, and i see Jay and Mandy in my rear view mirror turn and im like oh great.. Laur missed the turn! so i could have managed jumping across 3 lanes and following them.. but i stayed Lauren and after another like 10minutes of being confused.. lol.. we got ot the Outback and ate good food. then everyone followed me to my place- we looked SO cute all following eachother. lol. it was fun. at the A.P.T., we got wasted. lol. Laur carried around a mini guitar ALL NIGHT LONG and sang every song you could ever think of. it was hilarious. Jay and Lou decided to see who was better at beer pong. for THREE HOURS. of course Jay won. lol. i can only imagine how long they would have played if Neil was there too.. omg. it would still be going on now! so Jay and Lou are fighting about everything trying to see who can be better. theyre hitting eachother with the wiffle ball bat and pillows and smacking eachother across the face- then theyre wrestling and me and Phil are scurrying around the apt moving everything breakable out of their way. haha. it was SO funnny. i was dying. then theyre making fun of eachother, and Lou runs into the bedroom and JAy.. pulls out his greatest line ever. i collapsed to the floor in laughter. he goes "You guys smell somethin?" and is all sniffing around Lous door. then he goes "i smell.. PUSSY!!"
omg. it was MOST HILARIUOS. then Lou goes.. "yea.. for the first itme in your LIFE!" that was great. my sides still hurt from laughing that night.. omg Lou was sooo drunk- he threw up.. he tells us like 50 times about the only 3 times hes ever thrown up.. then hes tryin to be better than Jay by telling him hes had more threesomes and all this stuff- then he goes to take a shower, and fucking walks out naked! i screamed in horror - the people around us must have thought i was getting murdered. then i pulled Jay's shorts down too. i was hoping theyd start sword fighting. lmao. it was the funniest weekend ever. i wish we were all still there. everyones visiting me all throughout the school year for more parties!!
aw man. so.. i found out classes start September 1st and Blueclaws is over the same night. im sooo upset i have to miss the last few games. not to mention Scott and Shawn will probably kill me when i tell them..
we dont kno what to do for Labor Day wkend either.. since uh.. i dont think we should really go to the Campground. lol. we should stay at Redneck.. i mean RedWing Lake or something. seriously guys.. it wont be too expensive to just get a tent site for a few nights. or we can party s'more at my apartment. we gotta do something together before we all start school and stuff though.
okay. i kno i left out a lot.. so.. tell me what i forgot! |
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[Aug. 8th, 2004|09:36 pm] |
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two updates in 2nights.. im on a roll here.
so.. better mood tonight. i decided to go down to my apartment and hang out with everyone for a few days this week before i go camping Friday so i dont feel sooo incredibly left out. and i cannot wait to spend the week at the Campground! last year it was soo much fun. this year will be even better since me and Mandy are actually 21. we'll be fcking drunk EVERYNIGHT.
i am soooo bored.. im gonna actually look for one of those stupid surveys everyone used to do in high school. hahaha.
name four bad habits you have:
1. complaining
2. biting my nails.
3. being jealous.
4. cluttering my room?
name four things that you wish you had:
1. a corvette!
2. a boyfriend. a REAL one..
3. a laptop.
4. i could also really go for a turkey sub right now too. with lots of vinagar!!!
name four scents you love:
1. freshly cut grass in the summer
2. new plastic
3. the campground
4. new shoes
name four people you would like to spend more time with:
1. Nicki!
2. Philip
3. Neil, Lou and Jamie cos theyre all at school and im not!
4. my campground friends
What are you wearing right now? barbeque saucy work clothes
current music: underoath
current taste: sour cream and onion potato chip
current hair: 2 messy buns
current annoyance: that i missed Warped Tour
current smell: it actually smells like the Cg cos my window is open
current game: texas hold 'em
current windows open: live journal, aim and media player and explorer
current desktop picture: Spiderman!
current favorite groups: Thursday, underoath, static lullaby, beloved, beautiful mistake.. thrice.. my fingers are tired of that now.
current book: i dont have time to READ! please..
current cd in stereo: underoath
current color of toenails: pink!
current favorite celeb: hmm. i havent watched tv in.. uh all summer so whoever i liked then, is probably unheard of now.
---> Name: Ashley
---> Birth date: 2/22/83
---> Birthplace: somewhere in NJ
---> Current Location: Jaxon
---> Eye Color: hazel.. so tonight they are.. dark green
---> Hair Color: blondish
---> Right or Lefty: lefty!
---> Zodiac Sign: fishy
---> Innie or Outtie: innie.. in fact one time at the Cg we managed to fit something like 96 cents in there.
// series two - describe
---> Your heritage: italian, irish, among other things. im American dammit.
---> The shoes you wore today: Vans.
---> Your hair: thrown up in a mess
---> Your eyes: hi deja-vu
---> Your weakness? falling in love...
---> Your fears: car accidents.
---> Your perfect pizza: i want papa johns now! they have like.. Hawaiian BBq pizza. sooo good
---> One thing you'd like to achieve: getting into a good grad school
okay i got bored with that. maybe ill continue the rest at a later date.. |
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[Aug. 7th, 2004|11:47 pm] |
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i havent updateed in a while. (im good at stating the obvious, arent i?) thats bcos ive been working like a friggen.. working person who works a whole lot.
i just called Philip. hes down there having a move in party for Lou and Jamie. i should be there too. i want to be at my new apartment SO BAD. its not fair i have to stay here and work while they get to hang out and drink and play beer pong and asshole without me. instead i get to wait another month to move in. on the drive home tonight, i was thinking and realized id be home not at midnight 2morro bcos we have an earlier game, so i was like ooh ooh i should Jamie and Lou to see if they wanna do something. then i remembered. i feel so left out.
i noticed work is getting less and less fun as the summer progresses. probably bcos i just keep realizing its never going to top last year no matter what happens. for instance.. if it was last year, right now i wouldnt be home sitting at my computer. i would still be at the stadium, most likely playing beer pong in the pantry with everyone. then falling down the stairs and stumbling across the concourse to get another twisted tea from the picnic room walk-in bcos they never had them upstairs. falling all over the concourse.. breaking the "T" off the Food Court sign everytime they put a new one up. i wonder what the thought about that T always falling off? haha. i think of it everytime i walk under it. the T is always there now. all attatched and glued to the sign and stuff. i wish it still said "Food Cour".
Devon quit. all homestand i swore she'd be there.. i kept thinking there was no way she could just stop coming and she'd come back and beg Scott for her job back. lol. but. that didnt happen. i finally got a chance to stay late at work and sit in the dark by the field. it was nice to do that again. it was sad i was alone thou. last year id always have someone to sit and talk to or just sit with. usually it was Joe Hammer. i really really miss him. we had some really good talks after the lights went off.
This crazy lady from Centerplate who we call hitler is "improving the way we do EVERYTHING" this week. its just like last year, except a lot less funny. Mr. Rich was entertaining at least. haha. that was the week we'd all play wall ball outside the concession stand. thats also when i started escaping to go sit and watch some of the game from party deck bcos i would get so pissed off an stressed from having to make everything run perfect while the other Centerplate ppl were there. i havent been up there in soo long.. today i had to go up there to get knives so i sat up there for a few minutes. i love how you can see everyone and what theyre doing down on the concourse. haha.
im also incredibly head over heels for Jake Blalock. see, if he was around last year, id probably at least be-friend the guy instead of drooling over him from atop the concourse while he plays baseball. last summer, the hot boys would come to the concession stand and hang out after their game. sometimes play pong with us. or theyd invite us out to Fridays with them to drink.. but we were all too young then. why doesnt that happen this year??
i want to be at school so baddly. i want to play video games all day and night with Phil, Lou, Neil and Jamie. and fight for varsity team awesum. lol. and just do spontaneous things and skate and long board everywhere around campus and skip class to watch an old movie or screw around. ugh. im so depressed tonight. i hate that theyre ALL there and im not. i should be there! i feel so damn left out of everything lately. i dont get to stay late at work.. im not at my own apartment with my best friends.. i never even see my family. the people i get to see the most are all my managers (who i love anyway!) and the Blueclaws managers (who i def do NOT love) and like.. Buster. lol. thats my family now. Buster is my big brother. im becoming delerious...
so.. let me just tell you.. how i have the BIGGEST crush on my boss. its ridiculous. but.. biggest crush ever. its so funny. if only he knew...
i want a REAL boyfriend. thats really depressing me too.. as well as surrounding issues. a lot of issues pertaining to that one.. actually. im getting bored with hooking up with people i think. i just want.. something real. i guess.? who really knows. im still waiting for him thou. id probably wait forever for him too. maybe soon.. |
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[Jul. 18th, 2004|08:18 pm] |
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hmm. work was pretty uneventful all week... i think. i dont remember it at all so im assuming it was uneventful! after work on friday, me and Lauren went down to the Campground. Laur forgot her Cd case, so we were asking people at work if they had any Cd's we could listen to for the ride, so Chris Taffro gave us some.. uh.. interesting ones. lol. this one was called Rapalicious.. lmao. so we pop that in and its pretty rapalicious for the first 2-3 songs.. then we hear like JC Chasez and Enrique.. and HILARY DUFF. we could not stop laughing!! i cant wait to make fun of him. haha. so we finally get down and Everyone else was already there and for whatever reason we decided to get drunk, even thou we had to get up at 8am for the Road Rally the next morning. lol. Lauren drives me and mandy to the bar- Mandy has all the forms of ID you could possibly need for your entire life- Soc card, birth certificate, library card. lol.. because she MISPLACED her license.. not lost it like we thought she meant at first. lol.
so.. we assume the liquor half of the bar is closed cos its like.. 11pm. so i go up to the bar and i ask him: if we could buy drinks still.. but not like real ones- like portable ones in bottles we can take outside. he looked at me like i was nuts. cos thats really what i actually said to him. then he asked me if i knew that there was a liquor store about 5 steps in the other direction. lmao. im such a dumbass. so.. we went back.. got wasted. Lauren was on the phone with Chris for like 3 hours and wouldnt give it to me cos my phone was dead and for whatever reason i really really wanted to talk to our boss Scott. i just thought it would be really funny. haha.
The next mornin we rolled outta the tent for Road Rally- which was SO FUN. of course it took us like 20 min to finally get on the right track at first cos we're kinda retarted. we were supposed to go right outta the Cg.. we go left. we're supposed to turn where we cant "play gulf".. which we later realized meant to turn at the GULF station. lmao. Lauren's all off roading the whole time and reversing cos we thought it wouldnt use up the mileage.. LMAO. then like halfway thru we realized it still madse it go up!! lmao. but aside from that, we were doin pretty good. we would get SO EXCITED everytime we found a clue. it was great. one of the clues was about finding "pussies on a post". haha. then we couldnt figure out this one clue, so we're driving around trying to find it for like 20min.. then notice we're convieniently close to Wawa. lmao. so we stop there.. get some sandwiches. haha. then we go back to the last clue to try to figure it out again, and who do we see there lost as hell but Mike, Jay and Jackie. after they told us on the phone they were sooooooo far ahead of us. too funny. so FINALLY we just randomly pick this road to turn down, and its the right way!!! if it wasnt for the roof in the car, we woulda been jumping up and down. so for awhile we're doin real good, and we get to a checkpoint where you pick up an envelope. the clues say after the 7th flying goose sign, theres the envelopes, so Jay and Mike are there lookin and someone else and no one's finding it. so we figure, maybe they all counted the signs wrong, so we go back to the beginning and sure enough, there was one sign hidden a lil by trees!! so we find the envelope and speed off.. the other guys never even found it!! hahahaha. we were having sooo much fun. at the next check point, they get ahead of us and we never see them on the road again so finally we get back to the Cg around 2:15 thinking theyre back already.. theyre not. they came a little while later. then at Dance, they said who won and all. it wasnt us! haha. but we did manage to get 7th.. not too shabby. all that mattered was that we beat Jay and Mike!! next year we're gonna get 1st place!
not much else interesting.. went to Applebees... Phil came.. mandy went home.. got more alcohol cos we are alcoholics... played beer pong... went to bed (in the wet tent) early cos we were so exhausted... woke up in the rain..
Then we went home. now.. we get onto the Parkway and its ALREADY backed up as soon as we get on. so we're thinkin bout takin 539 home. which was still a little bit away. we're approaching the exit for Rt 9.. so we look at eachother and we're like.. hm. wouldnt it be funny if we took Rt 9 all the way home? so we did. it was entertaining. still took 2 hours.. but entertaining none the less. i really really want to go on a road trip to.. um.. ANYWHERE. i dont care- ill just get in a car and start driving blindly. it would just be so fun.
this weeks gonna suck balls. I have both jobs EVERYDAY. thats like 830am to about midnight straight thru EVERYDAY. i love summer and all but.. i just cant wait to get back to school so i can relax a little! |
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[Jul. 12th, 2004|04:28 pm] |
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its been awhile... work has been keepin me pretty damn busy. im having fun thou. the little kids are SO funny sometimes. i love how theyll just tell you all these random things about their lives.. like: "i have a cat. her name is fluffy." or "my friend lives at 45 lake drive and her phone number is..." haha. this one day, this little girl comes up from behind me and i was like hey.. where did you come from? and she thinks for a second, and says "The United States of America." it was so cute. this one kid, we renamed Emo cos he cries about everything. today, he was already crying about something dumb so he was sitting out and he finally stopped so i said he could go play duck, duck goose with the other kids since he stopped. so.. keeping in mind there were about 30 kids playing... the "ducker" does not pick him on his first round playing. so he starts wailing and crying and carrying on.. we just looked at eachother like.. are you kidding me? ill give you somethin to cry about kid.. meet the back of my hand. haha no im kidding.
i finally had a weekend off from both jobs- i was sooo happy. so friday night was a party at Neil's place.. ok and Lou's and Phil's.. but its just too weird calling it anything but Neil's place. so i went there and Team Awesome Gurl fucking just ruled the pong table. we played like 5 rounds straight cos.. we just couldnt lose. (and then luckily lost finally because we were about to die from alcoholism). we're that amazing. then Saturday i went camping for the rest of the weekend. it was the best wkend- everyone was there. it was just like old times- god i miss going every single weekend like when we were kids. it was SO NICE to just be there at the pool with everyone. and me and Mandy went in the hot tub cos we can now!! haha. we're such dorks. Saturday night.. omg we got SO plastered playing in the pong tent. Again, ruling the table! this time it was me and Mandy kicking major ass. then we started playing flip cup.. and.. again me and mandy keep winning but... im not fantastic at chugging my beverogous items so i started feeling queasy.. lol. stepped out of the tent and proceeded to puke my stomach up in the trees. for like 15min im sittin there on my hands and knees puking... it was awful. i wasnt wasted enough to not really kno what was going on yet, so it sucked. but afterwards, i went right back to playing flip cup and beer pong! im such a champ. i love myself. lol. i also recall laying in the tent talking to random people on my phone just laughing hysterically.. i talked to Mr Wilson??? my 9th grade algebra teacher?! umm okay.. i dont kno where he came from or why he was on the phone.. maybe i imagined that part. lmao. such a great weekend. I LOVE CAMPING!! and next weekend, me and Lauren and Mandy are driving down right after work Friday night.. which is like 11pm.. lol.. so we can do... Road Rally!!!!!!!!!! i am sooo excited about that. i have off the next few wkends in a row, so most of them will be spent at the Cg probably!
so.. this is what the rest of my week looks like..
Monday: Recreation- Bowling
Tuesday: Recreation- Swimming (best day of the week cos none of the 5 year olds come cos they cant swim so we have like 5 kids instead of 40!)
Wednesday: Recreation- Skating AND Blueclaws afterwards.
Thursday: Recreation: On-site Day AND Blueclaws-Camp Day.
so.. this is where the SLIGHT dilemma comes in.. Rec is over at 1:15.. the Blueclaws game is at noon. ummmm... BIG PROBLEM. im not supposed to take off from Rec cos im a leader.. but Shawn has this thing with JUST me where im not allowed to take off. Ashley L can have off for HER other job every weekend.. Lauren can have off for prom and graduation and florida and being sick for like 12 days.. but i cant have off ONE day for my other job .. or because i have bronchitits..????!!!! what the fuck is up with that? so 2morro i gotta remember to ask to have off that day from Rec so Shawn wont get mad at me. but the Camp Day in August.. he better give me off for Rec cos its the last day!
Friday: Recreation- Recreation Station!! AND Blueclaws right after and right after THAT.. CAMPING!
omg. Chris Taffro just called me .. and hes LEAVING US FOR A REAL JOB!!! what is he thinking?! if we get stuck with Ben again as a manager.. im gonna cry. i wouldnt even say a word.. i would just instantaneously burst into tears. stupid boy. now im sad...
im Joe Hammer and telling him he REALLY HAS to come back now! |
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[Jun. 28th, 2004|09:44 pm] |
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Spiderman... Spiderman... friendly neighborhood... Spiderman...
First day of Rec was today.. it was okay i guess. kinda overwhelming at times. lol. i got stuck being the leader of the little kindergartners- sure theyre small, cute and furry.. but when theres like 38 of the little buggers.. WHEW! they were funny thou. i think we'll have some good times. its just sooo hard to keep them all occupied cos they only hold an attention span of like 2 seconds! fun times thou.
im also like the happiest girl in the world now as far as work at Blueclaws goes- we switched managers!!! so i am no longer Ben's slave! haha. the only problem is.. Chris is really hot. hehehe.
back to watchin Spiderman (Spiderman 2 on wednesday!!!!!!!!) and going to bed - i need my rest for another fun filled day with the kindie-kids! |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2004|10:36 pm] |
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i feel lonely. i dunno why. maybe ill make some new friends at Rec next week. granted theyll most likely be 6 years old.. we'll have good times im sure. im pretty excited about it.. im kinda depressed about it at the same time thou. ill be working at Rec from 830 til about 1.. then trot over to the baseball stadium from there until the usual midnight. wheres the "me" time at? oh well. at least ill be rich. ill be payin all my bills on time and ill have lotsa money to but fun things for THE apartment- which is gonna be so super cool. hehe. plus.. by working like 20 hours A day.. i wont have time to spend any of the money im making!! lol.
so.. THE apartment.. i cant wait to go shopping. i cant wait to do everything. SO excited. i actually cannot wait to get back to Glassboro- i really miss everyone. i dont hang out with ANYONE up here! i miss seeing friends every single day and getting calls saying.. um we're kidnapping you in 5 minutes. be ready. and bring your skates. lol. having nothing to worry about except video games all day long- well while you ignore those 3 papers you need to write. lol. god.. did i mention.. i have not played beer pong in weeks!!! im going through withdrawl over here. i miss Team Awesome. i cant believe i havent played in so long. i used to be upset when like.. 2 consecutive days went by where i didnt play.. but a MONTH plus??? thats just not right.
sometimes.. i really just want a real live boyfriend. i dunno. sometimes i just get mad at little things like phone calls and messages and hanging out.. then i realize im not really allowed to get mad at those things bcos hes not the "boyfriend" .. and that just makes me even madder. i kno the right thing to do is to be "sinlge" and "have fun" while we're still 21 and young and hold off on the boyfriend crap until later. but. i dont kno. i miss getting phone calls late at night just bcos and talking for hours about nothing and dropping everything no matter what it is to be with the other person just cos youre in love. i miss having nothing else matter and not caring about getting enough sleep or going to class or doing homework. or even going to sleep at all. random text messages and IMs.. sleeping over everynight even thou his room was just down the hall and he had to sleep on the floor bcos i still had a boyfriend.. but everynight. there he was- sleeping on the hard floor of our room. i hate how those things change. but they always do. i hate this. i wish we could go back and do things differently sometimes...
oh well. guess ill watch more ER. i dont feel like sleeping yet. too bad Abby Lockheart doesnt come onto ER for a couple more seasons- id really like to live vicariously thou Abby and Carter tonight. lol. |
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[Jun. 17th, 2004|10:26 am] |
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i just love how the entire stadium knows the intricate details of my life.
John Chussler told me even HE heard about everything from like 12 people- and he doesnt even work there anymore! He gave me the best advice of like.. my life thou.......
Drink soda. |
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[Jun. 1st, 2004|09:00 pm] |
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thank god we had a day off today. work has been pissing me off so bad lately. like yesterday for example. we walk in and notice all the managers and ppl wearing Hawaiian shirts and leighs and stuff.. so iml ike. hey.. whats up with that stuff? and Scott says its Hawaian Day. i LOVE Hawaiian Day!!!!!! so i asked why he didnt tell me and he said that all the managers got a memo about it and should have told their people. THANKS BEN. we were all SOOO mad!! Hawaian Day is the best day! i even got this flowery shirt specifically for Hawaian Day at Blueclaws baseball stadium. supposedely theres another one.. so id better know about it. Devon came in all dressed in her flowery shirt and i yelled over to her.. "oh HI DEV.. im glad YOUR MANAGER TOLD YOU ABOUT HAWAIIAN DAY." cos Ben was standing there. lol. i was so mad!
Anyways.. of course the first day of the homestand i start feeling kinda sick.. im figuring i caught my bros bronchitis that he had a couple weeks ago. so it keeps getting worse and i ask my bosses if i can call out if i dont feel better or get worse the next day. they say no. im not allowed to take off bcos im a supervisor. what the fcuk is that? so i like crawl into work feeling shitty as hell and do everything im supposed to. i felt SO SICK. so when the picnic starts (after all the actual "work" is done) my manager asks me if id like to go home since im not feeling good. yeah.. bcos its going to be SOOOO difficult to stand here another hour or so after i already did all the hard stuff the past 6 hours. why do they think i asked for a day off? perhaps bcos.. i felt like i was going to DIE?? so Lauren came over to my picnic and took over while i took a little nap in the cup room. lol.
i also didnt want to go home bcos that night was Mandys Beer BQ. i still felt so sick there thou. im sorry i was absolutely ZERO fun guys. i was SO excited for the party too. i wanted to cry. i almost did. you kno im REALLY sick when i turn down a night of drinking and beer pong and stuff with the Campground crew. i even stopped at the liquor store and spent like 20 bucks on my fave drinks to not even get to drink them! so you KNOW i was extremely sick. so i hung out for a little while, then around 1am went to bed in Mandys room. everyone else played never have i ever and i heard Lauren and Steve come in and join me a few hours later. im so mad i missed out. im sorry i was a boob Mandy!!! next time i will be THE life of the party! i sware. lol.
so.. back to work tomorro. lets all join in the jubilee. lol. my god what happened to last summer? i wish that i could walk into work just for ONE more day.. sign into the concession stand and start making preticles with Devon, Jess, LAuren and Jackie. then get called out for our little pre-game pep talks with Sponge Dave. make some fries. sit outside. play some wall ball. get a watermelon delivery. maybe get asked to help out in picnics for the day and work with Laur, Nicki and Alysse. Then stay late. play some beer pong in the picnic room or the pantry with everyone. throw the water cup at John bcos i cant beat him. Show everyone my boobies. well.. maybe ill leave that one out this time!! haha. call my dad and have him pick me up while i pretend to not be piss drunk. lmao. what happened??? hell.. id even take a day from last summer when Mr. Rich was there and everything was super annoying bcos it had to be absoltely perfect so Centerplate wouldnt lose the contract! ill even take back the days when "mommy" would come in and demand Register 1 and cry to Justin how our managers played favorites with us. and Hairy ankles would come in and wed have to resist the urge to hand her a razor all night. lol. oh well... ill just keep telling myself the fun has yet to begin... yea.
just SHHH. dont go bursting my bubble i live in! i can pretend on my drive to work that when i get there, it will be exactly the same as last year. |
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[May. 29th, 2004|01:46 am] |
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Dear Diary,
I guess you are the only thing that cares about me cos i have no one else to talk to. tonight. no noe even left ANY lights on for me. doors locked. pitch black.. i felt extremely forgotten about.and i had the worst day and just couldnt wait to get home for my favorite part of the day. but what happens? all i get is "im sorry. the cellualr customer you have called is not available. message 20." SO annoying. FINALLY a txt message slips thru to his phone and he calls me but hes too tired to talk. hes like well howl ong will it take you to tell whatever story you want to tell me? DUH. the point isnt thati want to tell you some gay story. all i wanted was to hear his voice and id feel better about everything. why dont boys get it? i HATE boys. my most favoritest, treasured part of my day is the very end of it when i finaaly get to just be on the phone with him. i dont care if we arent talking, as long as i can hear him breathing and i know hes theree i feel better. DUMB BOYS.
So if youve noticed that maybe my typing is slightly off toniht, its bcos i have major boo-boo issues. the first thing that happens when i get to work, i slice my finger in half on a grease trap. it felt awful.. i was trying to move the grill and i grabbed the grease trap holder thing and pulled.. only it didnt move.. and i just felt it cutting off my finger, like slicing action. i was just like omg.. thats really deep in there. it cut like, under my skin. as if you took a tomato, and went ot slice it, but didnt go all the way thru to cut the slice off. just halfway so its hanging there. THAT was my finger. bled forl ike 5 days. there bandaids NO WHERE - so finally after like an hour of searching my nurse christopher practically duct taped a wad of gauze to my finger. lol. maybe i sholud get a stitch and a tetnis shot. whatever.
So. i was supposed to go in today after i saw lauren in her prom dress.. but im sitting at home, watching tv and im literally worried about picnics. like.. i was getting sick to my stomach bcos i couldnt stop thinking it would be all fucked up if i wasnt there. so i went in and missed lauren in her dress. i was SO MAD. i should have just let the picnics be screwed over. cos they were anyways. i had TWO friggen ppl helping me to set everything up and cook and do all the shit. so then.. this one new girl goes missing and im like looking everywhere for her for like a half an hour, thinkin maybe she got lost or something cos i really needed her to help me. then Ben, my manager, comes over and i tell him i cant find her and hes like "oh.. that bcos i took her to work at a portable." oh. ok. thanks for letting me kno that little tidbit of information. so im left with ONE. finally a temp shows up.. who kinda helps but kinda doesnt really. then, 10min before we have ot serve i go to get the salads that were supposed to be made and im missing like half of them. i seriously wanted to kill myself bcos i was trying to find the stolen ketchup thingers and sweep up all the lettuce that fell from the salad bar AND ice all the sodas bcos did i mention.. i was THE ONLY PERSON THERE. cos the other 2 had to cook. so.. im trying to sweep, ice, and get the condiments ready and i radio Ben to ask him if he can get me tomatoes from the warehouse and give them to this kid that does all our salad prep to put them in a bowl, and he like screams at me over the wlakie talkie and is all "do it yourself you should have had this done you have less than 10min to open just get it done.. blah blah.." there arent even words for how pissed off that made me. and yea.. i was a baby and i was in tears about the whle thing. jesus. it was so horrible. all the other bosses and managers kept asking me if i was ok and why i was crying and all this shit. what the hell was i supposed to tell them? um.. my manager doesnt help me everrr and i want to quit? later i told scott i wanted my old job back in the concession stand. he was like are you serious?? and i was like.. yea. either that or i want joe hammer back. he looked upseted. so i assured him i was only joking. but later Ash told me that dave had comer up to her and asked for an evaluation of ben and stuff and said Ben got yelled at by Scott and them - so im scared that was my fault cos i said that stuff.. but i was SO pissed off at him today. not to mention extremely exhausted cos everyday me, Ash and lauren are there from like 1 in the afternoon to midnight. ugh.
WORK USED TO BE SO MUCH FUN.
i barely get to see anyone at first base anymore. i really miss the good old days when wed sit outside all the time and our little pep talks before the game. whoa pretels.. whoa. the green hot dogs.. freezer parties.. cup room parties.. going upstairs after work. no one ever asks me to go upstairs after work anyomre. it makes me very sad. i guess id be sadder up there now anyways- its notl ike id find everyone playing beer pong in the pantry now. i havent even gotten the chsance to sit up on party deck after work when its all dark and quiet.. im just way to tired to even do that. im really starting to hate work now. i used to LOVE it. durin the off weeks, id MISS it. and startt the countdown til the homesrand starts again. not anymore. its the other way around now.. counting the days until we go home.
oh yea. i got the letter from recreation. im a leader at Rosenauer. im assuming for little kids. although i have no idea where that school is.. hm. whatever. its from 845 am to 1pm every weekday in the summer. 6.40 an hour. thats such an odd number. whatever. i dont kno how im going to do this. 845am to 1pm.. then straight to Blueclaws until midnight... um.. i just might die. whatever. i dont even care.
i guess ill.. go to bed now. since i have no one to talk to. maybe ill dream of someone who actually cares. i hate my life today. |
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[May. 26th, 2004|02:12 pm] |
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ugh. 10 game homestand starts tomorro. taking over my ENTIRE Memorial Day wkend those fuckers. no camping, no BBQs.. nothing. So i hate work this wkend. A LOT. im gonna be sooo grumpy. and yesterday i stopped at Eckerd and saw Lou and he told me how everyone and their mother is going to Atlantic City tomorro for Jamie's bday. i tried getting out of work for ONE day.. but i get a message back from my manager saying how we have 2 HUUUGE picnics and id better come in like 5 hours early to set up and make sure everything runs perfect. stupid picnics. Last year, picnic people werent even ALLOWED to be in before 430. now im just slave girl who comes in at 1 and works til like midnight. maybe ill be able to do ONE fun thing this wkend.. Mandys beer-BQ!! which is Sunday. When theres a night game and a day game on monday. so the plan is.. im leaving as soon as the fucking picnic is over Sunday, and coming in late Monday. none of this 7am crap. Sorry Blueclaws.. id like SOME of my life back.
Lou also said he got stuff in the mail from Recreation like 2 days ago... i just got the mail for today. STILL nothing for me. im gonna be SO pissed if all of a sudden i dont have this job. where the hell am i gonna find another job now?
im in SUCH a bad mood. in case you didnt already notice! god.. i dont even have another weekend off until June 18th. And id bet a million dollars theres a stupid event and ill get dragged into working. Dont have off 4th of July. omg i need to win the lottery and QUIT. well... okay on the ONE and ONLY good note - today is payday. And ive got my $530 dollar check waiting for me.
What else can i complain about? Shoes. i went to Famous Footwear yesterday to look for a pair of sneakers for work. i dont wanna pay like 70 bucks for sneakers for work. so im lookin in the little boys section. lol. i LOVE little boy sneakers! theyre so bright and durable. lol. all the womens sneakers are like.. stupid colors like baby blue and light yellow. i want lime green or orange bro! so i found these AWESUM ones that were yellow with a zipper.. and today.. omg i found the same ones in ORANGE!! AHHHH!!!! but. Nike's run small said the lady so instead of a 6.. i need a 6 1/2. but the little boys stop at 6. BASTARDS! so today, i drove my mom to work cos my dads truck is broked and he took my moms Explorer and went to 2 more famous footwears and still the same story. but we had my FAVE for lunch... CRACKER BARREL!!! lol. so.. i guess ill never find sneakers i like. im too picky.
hmm.. still gotta write about this wkend.. so stay tuned! |
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[May. 21st, 2004|10:37 pm] |
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work was soo boring today. i was like the only person there on cashier. Sheri and the guy Ed were there and Cora for a little while .. oh and Chris and the other Chris too. what slackers they are. haha.
so anyways.. me and lauren were supposed to go camping tonight but the games were SO SLOW that i was stuck there til like 730. so we're still debating on going.. im about to leave- when some dumbass realizes he left his lights on and his battery is dead and he cant even get into his car bcos he has power locks. stupid boy. so i stayed there until he could get in and i could jump him. i mean.. jump his car with my car. riight.. my pony jumped his bmw. lol.
i just remembered something funny i did the other day with my car.. lol. i was running late for work.. okay a lot late- i was like a half an hour late! so i took rt 9- which was prolly adding to my lateness.. so i turn onto rt 88 and i need to go in the right turn only lane- theres NO ONE in it, but the line to go straight is forever long and blocking the lane to go right. so i decide.. to go a lil offroading and go halfway onto the curb to get into the right only lane to make the next light. lol. i just found that amusing.
yes. time for going. |
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[May. 20th, 2004|11:41 pm] |
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random day of work today.. there was a picnic for 125 college baseball players! So.. Ben calls me up last night and asks me if i want to work.. im like i dunnnno.... and then he goes on to tell me its for college ball players.. so of course im like HELL YEA ill work!! you shoulda mentioned that in first place and we coulda skipped my whole tryin to make up an excuse to not come in thing!
so.. yes they were all insanely hot. greatest day of work probably EVER. and it was fun too, cos it was just me, Laur, Ben and Chris. good times. Scott also finagled me into working in the concession stand tomorro for the tournament too. i couldnt say no- he bought us walkie talkies!! im soo excited. he LOVED my cartoon we left him. hehe.
money is amazing. they say it cant bring you happiness but.. whoever said that one must not have had money! today, i found out that my next paycheck is going to be... $529 fucking dollars. in ONE SINGLE PAYCHECK. i thought i was going to fall over when i saw that in the book! i grabbed my heart and a table to keep myself from fainting or having a heart attack. ive never ever had that much on ONE WEEKS paycheck!!! holy shit. and i used to get excited when i got over a hundred!!! DAYUMN! im SO framing this paycheck. last summer, i made about $1700 dollars the ENTIRE summer at Blueclaws.. so far this year, ive already made $1060. thats more than fucking HALF in only THREE homestands!!!!!! oh man. my checking account is not going to kno what the hell is going on. ill prolly get taken in by the FBI for bank robbery or somethin. oh man. this is SO great.
so.. hopefully me and Laur can escape work for 2 days to go camping. not that ANYONE is going.. ::coughcoughnickiandmandycoughcough:: but itll still be fun. it always is. plus the pool is open so we'll be chillaxin there. then im gonna head over to my place and pick up the last of the things i want home for the summer.. come home sometime in the middle of the week so i get to spend time with my favoritest boy in the world. i miss that boy. hes so hot.. hehe.
line of the day: fresh fish!
oh oh.. and this was hilarious- me and lauren are walking around the outfield to try to find stadium Phil. lol. to ask him if his name was Phil too.. even thou we kno its not bcos we yell it out all the time and he never looks up. anyways.. we're trying to intercept him to introduce ourselves and get his name, when he starts going out of the stadium, like in the back. hes a grounds crew guy, btw. so Laurens like.. "aw wheres he goin?" and im like "prolly by those hoes"- cos there were tractors and backhoes in the direction he was walking!! LMAO. we were dying.
yea.. but i guess ya had to be there... |
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[May. 19th, 2004|07:35 pm] |
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bored..?
FILL THIS OUT! hah.
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? |
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[May. 18th, 2004|09:59 pm] |
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oh jebus. save me jebus!
i need to start figuring out where i want to go for Grad school. part of me kinda wants to go far away.. like a good plane's ride distance from NJ. i dunno why.. it was nice going to Rowan bcos it was far enough from home so i could live there, but just close enough to come home anytime i wanted to. i want to get out of Jersey for a while thou. see what its like i guess. i think id like to stay on the east coast at least thou. but i dont know where to go to school!! i dont think i want to live in a city. Although i would like to go to Temple in Philly. Maybe a nice school in a quiet little town. Like somewhere in Massachusettes or Vermont. Then i could go snowboarding all the time. but i also like the beach.. so maybe someplace like Virginia or the Carolinas.
hmm.
i also want to go to a well known school thats big on football. I think it would be fun to go to football games as if it were like.. real football. lol. im so scared to go far away by myself thou. i wish i could bring along a friend. im not very good at making new friends in a new place when im scared. and what if i miss my family and friends too much? if i go far away.. it will be harder and more expensive to come home. and no one would be able to visit me! i dont kno what to do!!!
and then.. i dont kno if i want my Masters... or my doctrite. this is a never ending battle going on inside my head. i just cant decide! i want the PhD cos it would be awesum to be called "Dr. Ashley". lol. but i kno its more difficult to get a job in what i want to do bcos someone with their Master's is qualified too. ugh. the college years are so hard. someone PLEASE HELP ME!! |
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[May. 18th, 2004|02:55 pm] |
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wow.. so i finally got a chance to unpack! all my things have been sitting in boxes in my living room since i moved back home um.. a WEEK AGO. i blame it on work. work was amazing this week- i jokingly said at the beginning when i noticed i was racking up hours that i was going to try to hit 50 by the last day of the homestand. funny.. bcos i actually did. exactly 50 too. and thats not counting monday and tuesdays hours either, so i got 10 hours of overtime! im sooo excited. 12 dollars an hour! DAYUMN im fucking rich. i cant wait to see this paycheck.. i should frame it.
i like being home. driving around J-town is sooo much nicer and calmer than driving around glassboro and battling to find parking in the commuter lot. and i missed my room.. the other night i was bored and for some reason decided to rearrange it. again. but there are drawers on my bed, and the way i wanted to put my bed, the drawers would face the wall. so.. i was determined to have my room the way i wanted it. so im like, well.. im a handy girl. Daddys got a screwdriver. so yes. i took apart my whole bed just so i could move it! i was a little nervous to sleep on it that night.. but.. its still in one piece so far!
okay Lauren is out of school now, so we are going to Mickey D's to get an adult happy meal.. cos it sounds cool! we're such dorks...
k. Lauren told me that i have to write about this homestand cos there were so many things that happened.. but i cant remember hardly anything. i dont even kno what day it is anymore. yea. cant remember much..
tuesday there was a random 10am game for like class trip day, and the night before was a night game.. so jokingly i was saying "damn.. so whats the point of going home just to be here in like 5 hours?" and Shawn said so sleep here. and i laughed. and he said no.. really. a bunch of us are. so i thought it sounded fun anyways so i did. lol. we were sayin Mike Donaghue was the hotel manager cos he was giving us each our own suite to sleep in. it was so funny. no beer pong thou. theyre too cool for it i guess- we played shuffle board thou and of course i kicked ass anyways. even thou i never played.. it was interesting. so i got like 3 hours of sleep and woke up slightly hung over and didnt have time to eat anything all day. also didnt drink anything bcos we arent allowed to drink on the concourse, and of course i was on there all day bcos we had 3 full picnics with about 200 ppl each and i was the ONLY supervisor. it was soo crazy. i was running around like whoa. so at this one point, around like noon i guess, i finally get a 5 second breather and realize im incredibly hungry but nautious and dizzy at the same time. so i tell Ben i need to eat something and hes like okay.. you can as soon as we fill the ice caddy. so im like ok. we go to first base concess to do that, and as we are leaving i cant see anything or hear anything and i feel real dizzy and just like fall over. it was really scary- i never really actually fainted before! so.. that was fun. no. hung out in the cup room for awhile. somehow the entire stadium finds out and everyones askin me every 5 minutes "are you ok? are you ok?" so i felt like a retard. so.. ill try not to do that again any time soon.
oh.. Joe Hammer came to visit!! he came to like every game! and one night we hung out upstairs on party deck... and.. that was interesting. hehe. i miss him a lot. i tried to make him stay. working at Blueclaws just isnt as fun without him.. or everyone else thats not there anymore. ok ok.. so i just miss the beer pong. lol.
number 9 is really hot. that was incredibly random.
hopefully by next homestand we'll get those walkie talkies so we wont have to use our cell phones... haha me and Laur left Scott a "reminder" with a pic of walkie talkies and me and lauren cartoon like with huuuge smiles holding a sign that said we love Scott. lol. SUCH DORKS! but we DO really need them.
9 days off! yes! im soo happy. we're going camping and shopping and.. other fun things. call friends and let them kno we didnt die. haha. alright. time to unpack s'more so my room is nice n tidy! |
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[May. 14th, 2004|11:19 am] |
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now where was i? last time i was updating i was interupted by the cable guy who came to disconnect my internet! so i had to stop mid sentence pretty much.. ahh yes. the fun of getting pulled over for the first time everrr....
so the cop dude is making small talk, i think just to see how retearded and freaked out i am. hes talking about Great Adventure, and hes sayin so that must be cool to live so close to it. and im like um.. sure. and then hes asking what im doing down here and i tell him i go to rowan and hes like ohh neat. what are you doing out here then? and i think i accidently told him that my aunt had a campground instead of a trailer AT a campground and i was spending the wkend there and now i was going back to my apartment to pack. lol. and hes like oh.. on mothers day? um.. i guess so buddy, if thats today. i should have told him that my mom died and i was on my way to the cemetary to wish her a happy mothers day and thanks for asking. haha. but anyways.. he goes back to his car and does things and comes back and says okay you wanna kno why i pulled you over? (na.. ill just wonder the rest of my life) but it was bcos i had thingies hanging from my mirror. DUH. cmon. who doesnt?? you had to scare the crap out of me for THAT?? jesus bro. i was seriously thinking like, i had bought a stolen car or somethin the way he spun that u-ie. dayumn yo.
so anyways.. im back in J-town now. actually ive been here almost a week.. i just havent unpacked anything or hooked up my comp yet! haha. ive been spending my life at the stadium. but.. more on that later. ive got GOOD stories about that place! lets see.. in the past 4 days.. ive spent about... 50+ hours there. why did i bring all my clothes and things to my house? i should have brought them all there!!
ugh. time to get ready for work. |
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[May. 10th, 2004|08:38 am] |
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so.. im wating for the cable guy to come take away my life of Tv and the internet.. haha. they said he would be here between 8am and 10. hm. the lady on the phone didnt specify if 10 was an am or a pm. interesting. i could be here awhile.
this weekend was entertaining. Lauren came down Friday and we went to Andrews surprise graduation party at Philip's place. nothing extremely exciting was going on.. i remember MC Hammer being on thou. lol. the cops kept coming and teling us to shut the hell up so we decided to relocate to Neil and Andrew's apartment where wed be left alone. Oh! lol.. on the way over, i called Neil and told him we got lost. on Sampson street. hahaha. Nicki knows where that street is! so funny. of course we werent really lost seeing as Neils place was like 30 seconds away, but i couldnt tell if he believed me or was humoring me.. whatever. still funny.
the next morning.. ok well i guess afternoon by the time we got up.. we were getting ready to go to the Cg for the night, and we spot a spider on my wall. so.. i dont kno why this was soo funny, but it was. maybe we were still a lil tipsy, but we spray it with hairspary and it just falls onto the edge of my bullitein board on its back, legs straight up in the air! it was soo funny. like a cartoon death or somethin. so then it gets up and its tryin to walk away, but its all sticky so it cant move its legs, so its like .. i cant explain it. it was just funny. ok? so i drove... oh i forgot one part. pulling out of my apt, these DUMB ASS kids decide to run in front of my car!! i literally had to slam on my brakes to keep from hitting them. i almost had a heat attack. stupid kids. so anyway.. i drove all the way to the Cg without making any mistakes like last time! we didnt go to the mall 3 times, or the book store, or the expressway. hehe.
We found out that Nicki couldnt come bcos she had to work at the last minute, but Mandy came!! we had dinner at Vinny's.. mmm. soo good. The whole time Mandy and Laur kept fighting over who got to drive my pony. i thought it was funny having shh.. cho.. ffers.. those ppl who drive rich ppl around. ha. i love my car. back the trailer we were bored and just played dominoes. and cards. and.. monopoly JR. lmao. it was too funny.
so, we leave and go our separtate ways, and im drivin back to school. im on this road. the speed limit is 50. im goin 60.. cos all the other cars were in front of me! a cop is drivin down the opposite way, and in my mirror i see him spin a u-ie and come behind me. i was SOO scared.. i was prayin that he just got a radio call and wasnt coming after me. so hes kinda far back and the whole time since he spins the u-ie, im going like EXACTLY 50mph. no more, no less. EXACTLY. he flips his lights on. by this time, im about ready to cry. seeing as this is my FIRST TIME and all. he asks for my things. i accidently still had the temp insurance on top of the new one, so he gives it back and asks if i had a valid one.. my hand is shakin like a leaf. like.. seriously. it looked like i was having a seisure. i hope he didnt notice. lmao. and hes all making small talk with me, just to reiterate that im shitting my pants. hes like so..l youre from Jackson. thats not around here.. isnt that by Great Adventure? and im like yea i think so. lol. |
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| happy Cinco de Mayo!! |
[May. 5th, 2004|02:26 pm] |
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60+ days go by without so much as a click, and i start thinking the stalkers will FINALLY just leave me the hell alone. but no. of course not. they just HAVE to kno what im writing about. god forbid its offensive or something.
3 finals tomorro. ive been trying to study the past 2 days and i just cant concentrate. i hate studying! i cannot wait until its all over. HUGE end of the year and Andrew's graduation party Friday!! Lauren and Mandy and MAYBE even Nicki are coming down to celebrate!! and then we're going camping! i miss the 4 of us hanging out soo much! we avent all hung out since like New Years Eve!
and then.. i get to jubilee in an 8 day homestand. i hope we dont find anymore stinky legumes!!! hahaha. hopefully now that Scott said we could keep our stuff in the Vending Commisary.. lol.. ill get it all neat and organized so its idiot proof. i wish we still had the Picnic Room. it was SO much easier then! and i really hope Scott gets us those walkie talkies. i have a feeling hes not all about it anymore. we REALLY need them thou. last picnic, i needed to find Ben real bad bcos i realized we had NO picnic tables, but he was nowhere on my stadium radar, so i had to stand up on one of the tables and frantically wave my arms to Lauren who was at 3rd base and write to her in the air "B" "E" "N" "?" lmao. surprisingly she understood it and asked someone who had just come from the vending room and had seen him in there so he was sent over to me. lol.
anyways.. back to studying i guess. i hate finals! |
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[May. 3rd, 2004|11:31 pm] |
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then why should i. spend anymore. time in a world thats gonna end pretty soon. i need you now. more than i ever did..
soooo tired. and i just happened to notice.. that the upcoming homestand.. is 8 days straight. okay.. just a thought here.. but.. if im THIS exhausted after 31 and a half hours in 4 days.. 8 days straight.. will be like.. well. maybe ill start digging a hole in my backyard...
it looks like im not going to have to miss Monday night OR tuesday bcos i got my Finals all changed around. so i could go to work. who does that? so now i have like 4 finals all in a row on Thursday. this should be good. guess i can stop hoping for Deans list this semester! haha.
god i cant even remember what happened at work all wkend. i just remember being so fucking tired and delerious that i could barely make sense and everything was hilarious. i may as well have been on acid or something. the funniest things were stinky legumes. just the word "legume" is hilarious in itself. and then i was calling the chili con carne chili sean connery. lol. i cant remember much else. i remember Saturday morning i got a visit from the lovely red queen thou. i was in such pain all day. i just wanted to curl into a ball and cry- and thats the day Ben enslaved us like mad people and we worked like 11 hours. i kept telling him how the lining of my uterus was being TORN away from my insides and it felt like someone slowly pulling off all the skin on your body. but he wasnt understanding. men.
i miss everyone from last year. its pretty weird without them. i mean.. it hasnt really hit me yet bcos i just keep thinking theyll be there.. but.. theyre not. i really really miss the beer pong. it was just so fun- like not even the getting drunk part and playing beer pong.. but just everyone there is what made it so great. im gonna cry. i miss EVERYONE!
dear ambellina,
the prise wishes you to watch over me
ive fought the decisions that call and lost my part as the relevant piece in this i will come reformed in short for the murders of those i court i bless the hour that holds your fall
sincerely,
i will kill you all
LOVE that song. LOVE all their songs. hehe.
im going to see THRICE with Diamond Jess and Devon in like 2 months!!! im so in love with Thrice this month. i gotta go get the cd out of my car so i can listen to them now! haha.
im so bored. i LOVE my car. i cant stop sayin that. it still doesnt feel like MY car. its weird. but i love it. okay im shhing about my car!
you're more and less than you first had believed
you've so much to give and there's so much you need
shortcuts through graveyards and a brand new way to breathe
three thousand miles just to learn,
all that's gold does not all shine...
and helping words aren't always kind,
when one more kiss could kill you..
help you realize that..
you're more and less than you first had believed
you've so much to give and there's so much you need
shortcuts through graveyards and a brand new way to breathe
three thousand miles just to learn.
how to let my guard down except the fire has spread among us and if youre feeling alright youve got play it again, youve got to.. youve got to play it again..
LOVE. this song too. im in a weird mood. yea.. ive been in a weird mood for like the past 5 days. soo bored...
i want to see Odd Project. they need to go on tour. and come to Philly. and a static lullaby. oh and the beautiful mistake. and i have to see Thursday again of course. theyre the bestest.
AHH! my brothers found kittens in our backyard AGAIN! but this time they are WAY littler. theyre only a few days old, and sososoososo cute. the weird thing is that they are EXACT copies of the ones we found a summer ago. theres 2 sandy ones, a gray one, and a black n white one. i want to keep them. even thou we kept the other ones... lol. hopefully when they get older we can find them again cos the mom keeps moving them to different places and give them away.. to our friends so we can visit. and to me. cos theyre too cute.
alright i guess thats all for now. time for bed. im pooped. |
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| 11 more days! |
[Apr. 19th, 2004|01:22 pm] |
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what a long wkend..
went home for the rest of the Homestand as soon as i was done classes- it was SO NICE! im so glad im Supervising picnics now so i get to stay in the sun and get tan and actually see some of the game! i got SUCH sun burn.. its great. lol. im soooo tired thou.. the games on the weekend were both at 1:05, so guess what time i got to go in? 8AM. omg i couldnt remember what it felt like to get up at 6am!! its been awhile.. but it sucked. i didnt really mind thou.. i had to make back the FIFTY FUCKING DOLLARS SOME ASSHOLE STOLE OUT OF MY PURSE FRIDAY NIGHT AT FIRST BASE. yea.. i was so pissed off. i was almost in tears. i have no idea who took it or how they went into my bag without the other like 20 people at the concession that night noticing.. but.. whatever. i hope something extremely terrible happens to them. we're all assuming it was one of the Temps, bcos theyre shady people. Everyone felt so bad- Lauren and Peru gave me the tip money they had made that night!! And then my boss Scott kept saying how sorry he was like 500 times and took out a wad of cash and said here. take it. i dont need it, you need it more. i was like omg.. im not taking your money! but he made me. I love them. It cheered me up.
Several things that suck about Picnics this year:
1. NO PICNIC ROOM!!!! so we have to keep all our crap, yea including bowls, pans, and utensils under a tarp at the picnic area. how friggen dirty is that?
2. No more sausage!! i was looking so forward to that. mm.
3. Dave does not prep ANYTHING for us anymore, except the cookies and watermelon.
4. We have to keep all our food and salads in the Coke fridges outside. so when the breaker trips overnight, theres a shitload of food you have to throw out. (and yes, this happened Sat. night)
And this one is borderline bad and good.. Its all self-serve now. good bcos we dont have to do it, bad bcos its SO BORING STANDING THERE DOING NOTHING now. lol.
Several good things about picnics this year:
1. NO more separate wristbands!! Everyone can eat the ribs and chicken and no one has to cry!! yay!!
2. Instead of packaged cookies, Dave makes us his super super good cookies.. omg theyre amazing. In the middle, they taste doughy! mmmm. i want one now!
3. We have sourkrout!! (< i have noo idea how to spell it thou!!)
4. We dont really use the flatbeds anymore, cos all the utensils and food is already at the picnic area, and we dont have to go all go to the x-picnic room to wash dishes so we can just carry them to whichever place is closest.
And the BEST one: EACH supervisor will get a walkie talkie!!!!! so we no longer have to use our stadium radar to find eachother, get their attention, and spell words with our arms or try to signal things across the stadium when we need something!! im soo excited for that.
And the WORST one: No Joe Hammer. (lol.. had to throw that one in!) And no Nicki or Alysse either! but at least theyll be in the same state.. AND inside the stadium too...
So.. Friday afternoon before BLueclaws, i went over to the Recreation place to apply to be a counselor or something. the lady tells me theyre done interviewing, so im like shoot. and turn to leave- then she goes Wait, how old are you? And i tell her 21.. and she almost falls off her chair and tells me they DO need older people but she assumed i was 15. (this wkend, i was told i looked between the ages of 15 and 18 about 10 times. ONE day.. in like 20 years.. this WILL PAY OFF!) So i got an interview with this guy the next day at the Justice Complex. She was telling me like interview times, and she said 11 was open, so i just took that one even thou i had a game. i went into work early, and left at 1030 for the interview. Now.. the STUPID parking lot boys.. SO ANNOYING.. would not let me out bcos they had already set up their cones for entering traffic and swore to me i could not get out even thou NO ONE was coming in yet. so they sent me down this dirt road that led to god only knows where and i have noo clue where i am, so i drive and wind up in fucking toms river. SO not the direction i needed to go. eventually, after about an hour, i get to the Justice Complex. Have no clue where (or WHAT) a press box is.. so for like another 20min im trying to find that. im feeling like a huge jackass for being like an hour late to this interview, and the guys looking over my application and hes like "oh, you still work at Blueclaws? theres a game at 1, shouldnt you be there now??" and i tell him i just came from there and im going back after the interview, and he tells me i just couldve come after the game bcos hes there all day and the interviews arent really meant to be scheduled by the hour. so im like GREAT this couldve been useful about 2 hours ago when i was cryin and stressin about being so late and lost!! lol. but it went well, he was excited that i had been in Rec from Kindergarten to 8th grade so i knew all the trips and how it worked.
Random thought: God the memories from Rec.. i remember being 12 and crushing on Mr. S the gym teacher's son.. he was 18. we played checkers everyday. we held hands at the skating rink bcos he couldnt skate. i thought we were in love. then he gave a cookie monster to another counselor named Cheryl. i was heart broken...
But ANYWAYS.. i think i got the job as a leader bcos he asked me what age group i wanted and started telling me what to expect at the Orientation.. so.. this will be FUN!
This weekend was really fun.. i feel bad i NEVER saw my family once thou! |
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[Apr. 15th, 2004|04:00 pm] |
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.
DO IT! |
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[Apr. 15th, 2004|03:31 pm] |
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"when youre lost out there, and youre all alone.. Gary is waitng, to carry you hooome... everywhere you look."
i always wondered.. whos Gary? and why is he watintg to carry me home??!
FINALLY some free time to update my journal! (well.. the public part at least. some things are just too good to hold off on posting on locked pages! HA.)
I tried to donate blood today.. but of course as usual my red blood cell count is too low. it always makes me sad when they hand me the paper and say sorry, maybe next time slugger. im depressed.
BLUECLAWS stadium finally opened this week!!! not that any games were played with all the rain.. lol.. but hey i was there. and we pretended to work and had a really good time. it was soo fun to see everyone again. im really excited about this summer. i almost considered giving up my 8 bucks an hour supervising position to go back to my first base concession stand and do register for 6 bucks an hour... why? HOT MANAGER. lmao. but of course im not giving up supervisor just for a stupid hot guy.. lol. (ill just have to visit ALL the time!!)
Shawns, the boss, is giving me a hard time about taking off the weekdays this week to be at school. First of all, there arent even ANY picnics until Saturday for me to even supervise. he just wants me there to screw around in the concession stand doing next to nothing while he pays me 8 bucks an hour to do a job he could have someone getting paid 5.25 an hour to do. If he let me be manager like i WAS SUPPOSED TO BE this year, id drive up everyday after class. but i cant get there until like 7, ill be there no more than 3 hours, and then drive back to school. the money i make, id have ot use for gas money. the guy is ridiculous. i was thinking about driving home today to work, but it would be stupid by the time i got there with all the rush hour traffic. so im just gonna go home tomorro. bcos did i mention, there ARENT even ANY picnics this week for me to even supervise???
just venting. i still love work!!
alright.. my free time has expired. im gonna go start making dinner cos Philip gets out of class soon!! yay!!
i love my Philip... |
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[Apr. 5th, 2004|12:03 pm] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MANDY!!
when i come home-we're hitting up lotsa bars and heading to AC!
21!!!!! WHOO HOOOOOO |
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[Apr. 1st, 2004|07:27 pm] |
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my license plates FINALLY came in today! Phil thinks im the biggest dork in the world bcos im excited about this. but... they say "RAD 19W" Come on people!! They say my car is RAD!!
Whatever.. laugh at me. i can hear you. its ok.. i still think its totally... RAD!! ha.
So.. i guess my car is no longer "new" since it lacks the temp tags and all. thats okay. i got a few extra days to enjoy the newness since my tags were so damn late. this is what happens when the DMV doesnt get around to during your tags on time:
Your temp runs out. You drive all the way out to the dealer to get a letter. You put the letter in your car so when the cops pull you over for having expired tags, you can show him the letter and he'll go away.
i thought that was kinda strange.. like why couldnt they just give me a new temp tag? that would avoid the whole fiasco of getting pulled over and having peoples time wasted, wouldnt it? i dont get it. luckily i didnt get pulled over thou. then again.. i was scared of getting pulled over so i didnt really drive that much anyways. lol. yes.. again i am a dork.
Miss Lucky Beotch is leaving for Cali tomorro to be on the PRICE IS RIGHT!! stupid hoe bag. i wish i could leave NJ for like a day.. it doesnt have to be Cali.. it can be anywhere. it can be boring ohio for all i care. (as long as im near Cedar Point!) I dont get to go to Atlanta anymore for the hockey tournament. im sad. oh well. ill just be content spending my entire summer.. in.. Lakewood.
i love this song. number 3. it makes me want to cry. its soo beautiful.. i also have pms so i probably will cry before its over. i hate having pms. EVEREYTHING in the world makes me cry. the Sylvan learning center commercials make me cry. Watched a League of their own last night.. which ive seen 1000 times.. completely bawled my eyes out. "Theres no crying in baseball!!!" i sware- i thought id never be able to stop. ridiculous.
omg.. ELEVEN days!!! After tomorro.. ill be able to hold up my hands and say THIS MANY!!
um... thats all. yep. no more. |
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| HAPPY BDAY TO LOU AND LAUREN! |
[Mar. 19th, 2004|06:55 pm] |
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im sooo bored. i just drove my brothers around all day cos they had a snow day. we went to the mall and the outlets. i got some good stuff with my gift certificates! next time, im charging them gas money thou. hehe.
i need a new livejournal pic. ive had this one for quite some time now.. lol. maybe next week when im with my scanner again..
BLUECLAWS meeting tomorro!!! im so excited. i love work sosoososo much- i just hope its as fun as it was last year. im doing picnics... but Nicki and Alysse decided to go to Mikey and not come back. im sad. Hammer said hes staying in North Carolina. Sad again. i have no idea who this new manager will be.. i hope hes hot. lol. i hope we have fun.. i hope we become friends. i hope he lets me come in a lot on the off weeks. 23 days!!
Lets celebrate the upcoming arrival of BLueclaws' season opener by going through some of last years memories, shall we?
Waaaay back in time..
July 15, 2002
so yeh. i need to go to bed now so i can wake up at the ass crack of dawn so i can run my ass up and down the baseball stadium where i have to wrap about 12,000 hotdogs for the damn customers who are all pissed off and bitchy bcos i played with matches in the kitchen so now we have no ovens to cook the fries
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Lmao. my first year, there was a fire in our kitchen and i happened to walk in RIGHT after all the hoopla.. so jokingly, somebody said it was me who started the fire since i was conveiniently late that game.. and it traveled the whole stadium. fun times.
July 25, 2002
So… tonight while counting food wastes and polishing the counters at the stadium… a revelation came over me.
I thought to myself.. damn. Im here more than I am at my own home. I might as well live here. (lightbulb clicks on)
Other voice inside head agrees, that indeed, this is not a bad idea. So they conspire:
VoiceInsideHead#1: We could just stay in the stand all night and eat all the wastes we want!
VoiceInsideHead#2: Yeh yeh- not to mention the bottomless kegs in the back!
VoiceInsideHead#1: hell Yes! And When we get tired.. we’ll sleep.. right on the baseball field!
VoiceInsideHead#2: Yeh- in a tent! A big tent for Everyone!
VoiceInsideHead#1: Hey now.. alcohol + Ashley + hot managers in a tent ? we kno where this leads....
EvilMischievousVoice: Hell Yeh we do! P-A-R-T-A-A-A-Y!!!
Meanwhile…. Evil Manager pretending he owns the stand: “What do you think youre smiling about servant?! Do you think polishing counters is FUN? Well why don’t you get down on the floor and give me 20! And while youre down there you Nothing- you can lick the floor clean! We’ll see who’s smiling then!”
(VoicesInsideHead): Tell him about the tent!! … And the kegs!!… and the PARTAAAAY!!!!
(Ashley) Hey hey now.. pipe down in there… you’ve gotten me into enough trouble!
Shit. Im in a weird mood… the worst part.. all the while im writin this lame shit out.. im envisioning in my head all these events in comic-like form.. all drawn and colored neatly.. all the cartoon characters in my head.. help me.. please. I think im going insane…
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okay.. not much of an explanation for that one.. all i can say is i was SLEEP DEPRIVED.
August 29, 2002
i am going to miss werk SO much.. but wow. funny funny times.. never forget this one: (Dominick is talking about surfing. btw- hot boy) Ashley: oh you surf? where at?" (Dom: MAnasquan) Ash: "oh i surf there all the time!" (yeh ok ash.. WHERE THE FUCK did that line come from?!)
ha. and telling Nicki to stop liking tim and start liking Dominick.. just as a joke. but oh.. look whos going out now. (well practically) now im just their info kiosk.
and Wolfe said hes gonna get me a pretzel warmer as a going back to college gift. how friggen awesum is that?
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sorry Nicki.. all your heartache over the past 2 yrs is alll my fault!! i shouldve just cheated on my bf of the time and make out with him myself like i had wanted to in the beginning! i could have saaaved you!!
Last Summer:
June 19, 2003
so last night over at the stadium yet another beer pong tourny went down after work. i play several games and im winnin.. but ive been on the table for awhile now and in walks John.. beer pong champion of like.. the world. so my goal this lifetime is to beat him.. just once. so im already smashed once i start playin him and of course i lose- twice. so i get pretty pissed. first i start to cry (i was pmsing) so he let me rematch and i lost again and i turned into an angry drunk. now.. this is what i was told.. i have no recolection of these events.. but apperently i got so pissed i threw my water cup at john and attempted to hit him and joe holds me back and i bite his arm.. lol. so. today i come into work, and theyre all makin fun of me and my sloppiness and what not- and they tell me - get this- im suspended from beer pong for 3 nights. who does that?! now.. ok normally i wouldnt care- id be like whatever ill take my probation- but friday night is their "game of the century" when theyre playin 100 cup per side pong. as far as im concerned, thats just cruel and unusual punishment. so MAYBE im a LITTLE addicted to pong.. whats the big deal? ok MAYBE i get a little on the aggressive side and try to injure my friends.. no biggie. at least im entertaining. lol. we'll see what happenes friday.. hehe. i love work.
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August 8, 2003
last night i finally beat John!!
... i did win 20 bucks.. somehow.. i dont exactly recall how.. but i do remember it had something to do with boobies. and symmetry.. which i guess is a good thing. but wow now that i think about that.. there were A LOT of ppl in the picnic room playing last night and im pretty sure the girls came out a few times. so. thats just amazing. OH MY GOD i just remembered that the 3rd base stand manager was there and hes.. kinda old. now who should i worry about more.. him or the like.. big head honcho boss of centerplate who.. was also there. and who gave me the 20 bucks. i am fucking amazing.
so todays going to be the most amazing day everrrrr at work. i cannot wait to be made fun of by EVERYONE, bcos if you work at Blueclaws... you WILL kno bcos gossip spreads like wildfire around the stadium. i wont be suprised if i walk into work and there scrolling across the scoreboard.. are my boobies.
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Jesus. and those arent even an eighth of the memories.. last year alone was fucking the greatest summer of my life i think. honestly.. who can REALLY say they went slip and sliding on the Blueclaws field tarp at 1am? how many ppl REALLY kno what happened to the the T in the "Food Cour sign"? or has played beer pong in the pantry? or in the players room? or made out in the suites after hours? or had sex in the fucking scoreboard? or EVERYWHERE else in the stadium? lmao. who else knows what Preticles are? or how to properly clean the hot dog rollers? or what you do when you find moldy green hot dog buns? or green hot dogs? who else is THIS FUCKING obsessed with work???!!!
but.. i DO love work. and i just hope its half as fun this summer as it was last summer. maybe this yr ill be able to be an eyeball... |
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[Mar. 18th, 2004|12:16 am] |
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i cant sleep.. ive got stupid things on my mind- so i was going t hrough ppls profiles and started reading Nicki's journal.. found this.. and just HAD to post it here bcos every single one is TRUE.
Top 50 ways you'll know you're from jersey...
1. Your town is full of garage sale signs
2. There are more Italians immigrating in than New York in the 1920’s
3. You will take any road, ANY road, other than route 9
4. You skip school to go to the beach
5. The field you grew up playing in is now under development
6. You can’t believe other states don’t have full service at the gas stations
7. You have spent many after-midnight hours at a diner and you don't understand why you can't do that anywhere else in the country.
8. You spend more time at the Freehold mall than you do at home
9. You can’t stand the Colts Neck or Toms River spoiled losers
10. People from other areas say you say ‘water’ weird and you don’t understand why
11. No matter where other people are from, if they aren’t from California, Florida, New York, or Jersey, they are a hick
12. Pennsylvania is another world
13. You think there’s no better shore than the Jersey shore
14. The summers are always great
15. You know that Jersey Freeze is the best place for ice cream
16. You went to seaside or wildwood after prom
17. Just after they are finished building a school, another one is in the works, or there are trailers erected for the dumb kids
18. You know what B98.5 is and all of the commercial songs
19. The ‘Goonies’ touches home to your childhood
20. You are on the front line of the war with the Mets and Yankees, Jets and Giants, and Rangers and Devils
21. Every driveway has a basketball net
22. Every other house has a pool
23. You recognize places from the Sopranos show
24. You’ve seen, met or know someone who knows Bruce Springstein
25. You know what U-turns/jug handles are
26. Cops have nothing better to do then sit in speed traps all day
27. You see five cops on your way to Wawa
28. You groan when you realize someone from New York is driving in front of you.
29. Wawa is your home away from home
30. You were shocked when MTV came to Seaside Heights
31. You hung out at the mall in middle school
32. You stay away from Asbury Park unless you are going to the Stone Pony
33. You make the North-Central-South Jersey distinction
34. You drive around looking for ghosts
35. You go know Rita's is good even though it's a chain
36. You’ve driven to gravity hill
37. Your area code keeps changing
38. You are tired of seeing Stumpy’s Yamaha commercials
39. You STILL can’t understand what the guy from the Tire Farm commercials is saying
40. You wonder when route 33 is going to be done
41. Your local police department is a joke
42. You’ve never gone to a New Jersey Nets game
43. You know how pathetic the Lakewood Blue Claws are, but you like them anyway (UMM NO! BLUECLAWS IS THE BEST PLACE ON THE PLANET!)
44. You know what handball is
45. You know that the only people who call it "Joisey" are from New York (usually the Bronx) or Texas
46. You know that it's called "Great Adventure," not "Six Flags."
47. You know that Fries with gravy is amazing
48. You know that this is the only "New..." state that doesn't require "NEW" to identify it (like ...Mexico, ...York,...Hampshire (doesn't work, does it)?
49. You only go to New York City for day trips, and you only call it "The City."
50. You know that people from the 609 area code are "a little different." |
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[Mar. 14th, 2004|11:49 pm] |
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Spring Break is finally here!! im so excited to be home with my car. i cant believe i made it all the way up CRAZY 295! Thank GOD I followed Jamie and had Lou with me! i would have probably freaked out if i was by myself. i never would have even attempted getting onto that exit ramp for 295... i would have just kept going and hoped for the best. lol. even if i wound up in rhode island. so thanks guys!
tomorro, im going to the mall for HOURS cos i have $150 in gift certificates saved up to spend there!!! how exciting is that? i havent had money to spend on things for MYSELF since last summer! first, im going to buy a pair of jeans... since i MAJORLY need those! my only other 2 pairs of jeans have holes in them.. BOTH from climbing fences while drunk. yeh, youd think ripping the first ones would send me all kinda of messages to NOT climb fences while drunk anymore, but no. so im not ever going to wear these new jeans i get to parties!! haha. just in case!
Tuesday i get to go to BLUECLAWS!!! im soo excited. i was going to do a drive by anyways, but now i have a real reason to go so i dont feel like an idiot! lol. Shawn asked me to come in to talk with him about 3 possible managerial-type positions he has for me. so i guess i get to pick one! i kno one is Supervisor of Picnics.. which would be AWESUM cos i couldnt stand being in the concessions all cooped up last year. in picnics ill be out in the sun and walkin around.. but we'll see what the other 2 offers are too. then Saturday is the meeting!! so ill see whos coming back and have a little reunion hopefully. i cannot wait for work to start. i have it all scheduled around my classes already. mostly.. im just planning on skipping them! hahaha. its okay thou.. cos see ive been saving my absences all semester for work. i havent missed a single class yet. god i love work.
28 DAYS!!!!! |
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[Mar. 9th, 2004|11:38 am] |
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"if you come in from the street with dirty shoes on your feet,
[thats a Technical Foul]
if you switch the radio to some loud music show,
[thats a Technical Foul]
if you don't shut the door after using the 'frigerator,
[thats a Technical Foul]
If you touch the thermostat, you'll get hit with a bat,
cuz thats a Technical Foul
you'll feel their wrath if your hair clogs the drain,
you'll know the meaning of pain,
cuz thats a Technical Foul
i'll show you no mercy oh,
this is such bullshit, in this house we say,
"bull spit" or its a Technical Foul
Let me get this straight,
you expect me to change my entire lifestyle in one night
cuz you guys are a couple of psychotic control freaks?
you got it bub.
well i dont wanna do that but let me run a few questions by
you 2 okay so i dont screw up accidentally:
if i dont spray Lysol after moving a bowl,
[Thats a Technical Foul]
okay, if i decide to wash my ass with you monogram towel,
[thats a Technical Foul]
Make some long distance calls,
you'll get a kick in the balls
cuz thats a Technical Foul,
There are certain rules which apply in ones life
with your sister, friends or imaginary wife
i cant beleive i haven't killed myself
here with with magee and the furry elf
shes nerotic and shes a troll
how did i get stuck in this shit hole
guess ill have to deal with your demands
but please dont touch me with your alien hands
i got no right to prowl but your search is on the town
dont listen to her or its a Technical Foul,
a Technical Foul, Technical Foul, a Technical Foul,
Technical Foul, Technical Foul!" |
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| whoa.. whered the time go? |
[Mar. 3rd, 2004|10:17 pm] |
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my birthday weekend.. was.. a looong time ago! haha. god damn ive been so busy and back logged with homework and paper. FINALLY a night without homework! So my bday was fun, as expected. Me and Bob's girl, Brieon had a double party cos her bday is a day after mine! So Philip and Bob put a party together at their place just for us. And then we walked back to my place.. yeh. that one took AWHILE. i thought.. in my drunk state of mind.. it would be faster to "cut through" campus. we forgot that the whole fence thing is around robinson for construction, and of course, im too determined to find a way to go THROUGH the construction bcos im too stubborn to walk all the way around. So i find a part i can step over, skip through the holes and rocks and big yellow machines.. it was like a field of land mines. so i get across, and decide to hop the fence.. instead of looking A FOOT NEXT TO WHERE I CLIMBED OVER TO SEE THE FUCKING GAP IN THE FENCE. yeh. i sorta missed that one. i climb over and its all sharp and jagged at the top so i rip up my pants and do a number on the insides of my legs.. get all caught and im like dangling by my pant leg upside down. it mustve been a sight. then i finally get over, and theres these 2 guys right behind me.. they walk thru the gap. yeh.. well they mustve done it already! and they seemed a lot more sober too.. yeh. im not stupid.. i saw the gap. i just thought it would be more fun to climb.. thats right. bitches.
so anyways.. we're over by edgewood apts now, its like 3am... and theres this black dude in front of us and he turns around and goes - "yo you guys followin me? you best not be followin me- im from north jersey i dont need to be mugged tonight." we didnt kno whether to laugh or turn around and walk the other way. why the hell would 2 black guys from north jersey be scared of getting mugged by 3 white girls and 2 white ass boys from new jersey? he mustve been on something other than what we had...hallucinogens maybe. we really looked like muscley polar bears ready to bite to him. thats what it was...
failed my pre calc test with flying colors. so now i have to withdraw from it. and take it over the summer. im such a dumbass. 1+2=4.. so im a little depressed about that one. 9 other people failed impressively too and have to drop with me.. i guess i dont feel THAT bad... ill just blame it on the teacher and keep tellin myself im really smart... yeh.
got.. the.. license. yeh yeh yeh.. i kno. its about time right? well.. in my case, i think it paid off waiting all these years - saving money by not having car payments.. insurance.. gas... cos I.. am now.. the VERY PROUD owner.. of a 2001 Mustang. its not GT or anything special.. just your regular basic mustang.. but god damn is it NIIIICE! i cannot wait to pick her up tomorro! i decided.. im not parking it in the parking spots in front of my apt.. its goin around back so i can stare at it through my bedroom window. lmao. im such a dork.. but hey. who knew car shopping would be so fun? im actually kinda sad its over-- it was like a roller coaster. i had the hardest time deciding!
oh.. and YES everyone whos EVER been my friend.. can get rides virtually anywhere.. since i owe everyone for driving me around all through the past 4 years!!!! lmao. |
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